magic.

[1]
In a giant room. There are magical performances going on and the last girl is “up.” I am with Troy. The room is cluttered full of items. Her performance INSANELY, with some announcement (or maybe even psychic message or maybe literal message over loudspeaker) that says that this lady’s dance is to combat male-ness — or something along those lines, anyway. It begins with her at the center, pop-and-locking, while a bunch of dudes try and fight her. She is wearing a crop top and baggy pants, like Aaliyah with bad early ‘90s fashion. There is a slow-motion dance move she is doing, and it looks like there is an invisible sphere around her that the enemies cannot penetrate, though I think that’s just an illusion initially. Soon, though, the magic seems to become real and all these crazy objects and happenings begin to happen, and Troy and I are sitting facing it “head-on,” as though she were on a stage in front of us and we are exactly centered in the back of the room watching her… and we begin to wonder aloud how these things are happening and I begin wondering internally if it is only because of our perspective that this magic looks like magic or if it is actually magic. We also wonder if she is making the performance happen. it looks like a three-dimensional animation or rendering or something, not real life; all of the components look rather polished. At this point, many items are magnetized on the ground, and they all begin moving around in a path that she determines — a really complicated path, where every item has their own individual arc and story, like God commanding the lives of each person. At one point, I am on the far side of the room (well actually, I’ve moved diagonally, towards the “front right corner”) and I am near these balloons that she is guiding around on her “magnetic track.” The fascinating thing is that though these objects have a controlled route that they are set on — which magical lady determines — they are also free to be controlled by the other people in the room (again, like God). I find myself drawn to the white balloons, though there are many objects in the room. I hit over and over again one balloon in particular, but find that it always goes back to where it wanted to be and I find this so amusing I giggle. I also hit around a really small white pebble as I’m moving from the front right of the stage to the center middle, where the performer is. But soon, she crumples, and Taraka from Prince Rama emerges from I don’t know where, with really tender energy, and goes to see if she is alright. She is not responsive, and Taraka (or someone) is told to call the performer’s mother. And slowly, everything in the room becomes less magnetized, and it dawns on me that she WAS really controlling everything…

Theater
To dream that you are in a theater signifies your social life. Consider how the performance parallels to situations in your waking life. Observe how the characters relate to you and how they may represent an aspect of yourself. You may be taking on a new role. Alternatively, the dream is a metaphor that you are being too theatrical or too melodramatic. Are you being a dream queen?

Magic
To perform or dream of magic suggests that you need to look at things from a different view or approach your problems from a new angle in order to successfully move forward. Alternatively, magic symbolizes creativity and wonder. Perhaps someone or something has caused you to be in awe. The dream may also be a metaphor that you or someone is “up to some trick”.
To dream of black magic implies that you have obtained your wishes and wants through underhanded tricks. It also symbolizes deception, evil and treachery.

Magician
To see or dream that you are a magician signifies that an issue or a task at hand may be trickier than you had anticipated. You are feeling disillusioned. Alternatively, the dream means that you are trying to fool yourself or someone into believing something that you know is not true.

Magnets
To dream of a magnet, denotes that evil influences will draw you from the path of honor. A woman is probably luring you to ruin. To a woman, this dream foretells that protection and wealth will be showered upon her.
To see a magnet in your dream symbolizes negative forces that are drawing you towards a path of dishonor and ruin. Alternatively, the dream signifies personal empowerment. Some force is bonding or uniting your relationships together. The dream may also be a metaphor for your magnetic personality.

Dancing
Spiritually, dancing has always been taken to represent the rhythm of life. The patterns created are reputed to mirror the patterns of creativity. If space and time are part of one continuum, movement and the flow of dance link the two together. Psychologically, dance can be a reinforcement of freedom of movement, strength and emotion. Ballet in particular portrays an ethereal appreciation of mood; flamenco and other such energetic dancing reflect passion. Dance has always represented freedom and been symbolic of other actions which were necessary for survival. To be dancing in a dream portrays the creation of happiness, feeling at one with the surroundings and possibly getting closer or more intimate with a partner.

Balloon
To see balloons in your dream indicate declining hopes and disappointments in your search for love. A situation in your life will take a turn downward. Balloons also represent arrogance and an inflated opinion of yourself.�If you see black balloons in your dream, then it symbolizes depression, especially if the balloons are descending. To see an ascending balloon in your dream signifies frustrating conditions in your life in which you are seeking to rise above. You are expressing a desire to escape. On a positive note, balloons symbolize celebration and festivities. You need to acknowledge your inner child.
To see a balloon pop in your dream symbolizes an unrealized goal or dream. It may also represent the stresses in your life. The pressure may be starting to be too great for you to bear. To dream that you or someone is blowing up a balloon represents your aspirations, goals and ambitions. You are experiencing renewed hope.

White
White represents purity, perfection, peace, innocence, dignity, cleanliness, awareness, and new beginnings. You may be experiencing a reawakening or have a fresh outlook on life.�Alternatively, white refers to a clean, blank slate. Or it may refer to a cover-up. In Eastern cultures, white is associated with death and mourning.

Pebble
To see a pebble in your dream represents minor difficulties and annoyances in your life. To dream that you are throwing pebbles suggest that you are feeling hurt by the little things that may seem insignificant. It is symbolic of criticism and gossip.
For a young woman to dream of a pebble-strewn walk, she will be vexed with many rivals and find that there are others with charms that attract besides her own. She who dreams of pebbles is selfish and should cultivate leniency towards others’ faults.

Interpretation Of Symbols:
None of these symbols or interpretations really means anything to me… I rarely dream of magic, though, so that’s cool.

[2]
I am walking with four other people through some natural setting with concrete urban-type qualities. it’s a park with really tall hills. Anyway, two of the guys are really into skateboarding or snowboarding, and they begin doing tricks like madness. All of us can kind of do tricks and are kind of interested in those sports, but the three of us are less interested than the other two. The other two decide they don’t even want to stay on the pre-determined route, but are interested in carving out their own, and they scamper off from the urban ruins and into the brown hills. They disappear. The other three of us head towards a grass field, where there is somewhat tall grass and mucky ground. It’s a little gross to walk through but I do it, as I’m no longer interested in skateboarding or snowboarding. It’s also funny we explore that section because there’s really not much going on there, and we can see the end of it (it’s like a square, though I’m not sure what it’s bound in by). Finally, I get the feeling that I’m going to come across a body or something — and I do, and I announce that I’ve found a dead body. only it’s not dead. Upon discovering it comes flooding off a neon-lighted, glowing world of little people doing I don’t even know what. They come tumbling out like exo, Slimer, energy. And the grass becomes flooded over by tons and tons of blue dragonflies, evenly spaced along its surface, dotting it. one of the guys I am with wakes up the fallen girl, who seems perhaps scared of the little men she is exuding? And he tells her that similar things happen to him — or in his family or something — and that in Irish culture such things are regularities, little men dancing around in neon energies… not sure what else happens.

Dragonfly
To see a dragonfly in your dream symbolizes change and regeneration. It may also indicate that something in your life may not appear as it seems. Alternatively, the dream represents instability, flightiness or activity. You are always on the go. To dream that you are eating a dragonfly suggests that you are consumed by some sort of passion even at the risk of offending or hurting other’s feelings.

tri-dream extravaganza.

vivian:
dream #1
at some dormitory or something. i have to kill someone. come poking around this corner with my giant semi-automatic rifle (actually i think in the dream it was explicitly thought that it was automatic) and leave it out, waiting to shoot the person i’m going to shoot as soon as he comes out. i use a tactic i used to use in paintballing, which is to just wait still rather than ducking in and out; to wait for the person to come out first and then just react because i’ve been watching him the whole time. i think to shoot at his toes first, and that that will catch him off guard, and he will then expose himself for me to shoot him more. it doesn’t exactly go down like that, but i do hold the finger trigger down and spray him, all over, and lots of times in the face. but he just seems like he won’t die! later i approach him and shoot him many times in the face again, close to him, and it is still basically uneffective. he seems to be coming towards me like a zombie a few times, and it’s scary. eventually he pulls out some sort of surgical pin and seriously sticks it in his face and i just think that he is super fucked. he’s lying on the ground as he does this, and i’m trapped in this cubicle-type dormitory thing with him (there’s really nothing even in this cubicle; that’s just the sense that i get… that he lives here). there’s another dormitory cubicle next doorand there’s a girl in her bunk bed there or something. i climb up to it with her and the dude who i was trying to kill pops over again, and he starts climbing up her bunk bed, and eventually grabs onto my gun which i had pointed downwards at him. i ask the girl if she can hold on to me because i feel like i might fall off the bed because i’m sitting in the section with no guardrail. she refuses although very politely, like she was frightened, and eventually he climbs up to my hands or something, and i’m worried that i’m going to be pulled down with him. somehow down below there is now an opening… there’s a walkway, the hallway where i had formerly been pointing the gun at him, but there is also this opening like when you’re on the top floor of a mall and are poking out over the railings. as he is grasping onto my hands, i eventually shake him off, and he tumbles really, really far down below, like at least three huge levels (although each level is probably more than one story; i only say levels because it seems there are only three boundary-rail-type-partition sections). i’m like, shit. i get the sense that the guy who i’ve just killed is troy (1). i go downstairs and now it seems like tin-win and karen are with me. we’re entering the elevator and i’m worried that, in my footsteps, it seems like i am walking with too much bounce, and that there are cameras catching this the whole time, and that if they see me so happy going down to check if this guy, who i obviously know, is dead, then i won’t be able to get away with it as an excuse. but we downstairs and we turn to the right and there’s a hotel bar, with lots of deep reds and browns, with carpet,and he’supposed to be there, but instead there’s someone mopping the floor or something. i duck to the left, where it is white and tile floor, and there is a traffic cone, really faded, and there is also a lady cleaning up there. no sign of the dead guy, at all. i worry that it was obviously an accident but at the same time he must have had all these weird gun marks and poking himself with pin marks… and then i get the sense that the guy is not really troy (1), but that he’s lenny, and i soon find myself either text-messaging with or calling posa and linh to try and tell them this… we exchange some messages… they seem friendly, especially considering the circumstances. maybe there is confusion. also, i am at one point using my old nokia phone (my favorite phone) which is fully battery-charged in this dream. in real life, though, it doesn’t actually work without it being plugged in all the time…

Gun
To see a gun in your dream represents aggression, anger, and potential danger. You could be on the defensive about something. Or you may be dealing with issues of passiveness/aggressiveness and authority/dependence. Alternatively, a gun is a symbol of power and pride. To dream that someone is shooting you with a gun suggests that you are experiencing some confrontation in your waking life. You feel victimized in a situation or that you are being targeted.

Attack
To dream that you attack someone represents pent-up frustration and anger. You feel that you have been wronged. Your dream serves as an easy and safe way to express your anger.

Stab
To dream that you have been stabbed signifies your struggle with power. You are experiencing feelings of inadequacy and defensiveness. Alternatively, the dream suggests that you are feeling betrayed as reflected by the popular phrase, “being stabbed in the back”.
To dream that you stab someone indicates your fear of betrayal and your untrusting nature. You are being overly defensive.

Dormitory
To dream that you are in a dormitory represents the value you place on knowledge and education. You believe that you are constantly learning, even when you are in the classroom. If you are currently a college student who live in a dormitory, then this symbol may just be a reflection of your current surroundings and hold similar meaning as a house.

Bunk Beds
To see bunk beds in your dream represent childhood and innocence. Alternatively, it may refer to diverging and conflicting views of sexuality. You may have difficulties expressing your needs and desires.

Fall
To dream that you fall and are not frightened signifies that you will overcome your adversities with ease.
To dream that you fall and are frightened indicates a lack of control, insecurity, and/or lack of support in your waking life. You may be experiencing some major struggle and/or overwhelming problem. It may also imply that you have failed to achieve a goal that you have set forth for yourself.
To dream that you are free-falling through water indicates that you are feeling overwhelmed with emotions. You may feel that it is easier to give up, then to try to stay afloat or prevent yourself from going under.

Elevator
Descending in an elevator suggests that you are being grounded or coming back down to reality. It also signifies setbacks and misfortunes. In general, the up and down action of the elevator represents the ups and downs of your life. It also symbolizes emotions and thoughts that are emerging out of and submerging into your subconscious. Alternatively, the dream may have sexual connotations.

Camera
To see or dream that you are on a hidden camera indicates that you feel that you are being scrutinized. All eyes are on you.

Hotel
To see a hotel in your dream signifies a new state of mind or a shift in personal identity. You are undergoing some sort of transition and need to move away from your old habits and old way of thinking. You need to temporarily escape from your daily life.�Alternatively, the dream may imply a loss in your personal identity.

Carpet
To see a carpet in your dream represents your way of protecting yourself from life’s harsh realities. Alternatively, a carpet symbolizes luxury, comfort or richness. Consider the condition and designs of the carpet and how it parallels the foundation that you have laid for yourself in life. Perhaps the dream is telling you that you are refusing to confront some issue and instead are sweeping it under the carpet?

Burgundy
To see the color burgundy in your dream symbolizes wealth, success, and prosperity. It is indicative of your potential power.

Bar
To dream that you are at a public bar signifies your desire to escape from the stresses of your daily life and retreat into a light-hearted environment where pleasure abounds. Alternatively, you are seeking acceptance in some aspect of your daily life. The dream may also be a pun on being “barred” from some place or something. You are feeling excluded or held back by circumstances beyond your control.

Janitor
To see or dream that you are a janitor suggests that you need to work on cleaning up an aspect of your life.

White
White represents purity, perfection, peace, innocence, dignity, cleanliness, awareness, and new beginnings. You may be experiencing a reawakening or have a fresh outlook on life.�Alternatively, white refers to a clean, blank slate. Or it may refer to a cover-up. In Eastern cultures, white is associated with death and mourning.

Tile
To see tiles in your dreams indicate that you are too rigid in your thinking. Alternatively, it suggests that your life is monotonous or repetitive. You need some excitement.

Traffic Cone
To see traffic cones in your dream suggest that you need to slow down. You may be experiencing some delays or setbacks toward your goals. Perhaps the dream is telling you that you need to take a different approach.

Tile
To see tiles in your dreams indicate that you are too rigid in your thinking. Alternatively, it suggests that your life is monotonous or repetitive. You need some excitement.

Killing
To dream that you kill someone indicates that you are on the verge of losing your temper and self-control. Consider the person you have killed and ask yourself if you feel any rage towards him or her in your waking life. Your dream may be expressing some hidden anger. Alternatively, you may be trying to kill an aspect of yourself that is represented by the person killed. Identify the characteristics of this person and ask yourself which of these qualities you are trying to put an end to.

Cell Phone
To see or use a cell phone in your dream indicates that you are being receptive to new information. It also represents your mobility. Alternatively, the dream signifies lack of understanding. Perhaps you are having difficulties getting through to someone.

Battery
To see a battery in your dream symbolizes life energy and vitality. If the battery is dead, then it suggests that you are emotionally exhausted or feeling low.

dream #2
i think this is a different dream, though it might have been a contuination of the last. i’m walking across a street in a really busy city and a really busy intersection (i’m talking new york busy, in a really busy part of town) and i pass a stocky man who has some other guy following behind him. as i pass the stocky man, he has a slight jump in his step and i feel like that jump means that he knows me somehow… but i pass by, and later on, i’m approarched by who i assume is the skinnier, butler-esque man (though not exactly) who was following him… i don’t actually see this man approaching, but he comes behind me and gives me an envelope. i recognize this envelope as something sherry (?) has supposedly told me about before; it’s a one-of-a-knid very unique invitation, to some kind of dining experience, and you have to apparently go to a storefront to redeem it and say whether or not you’ll be going. i soon find myself at the storefront, which is extremely white in decor and kinda high-nd minimal. the envelope i had gotten was a dark shade of blue-purple with white text. i enter, approach a table to the left which is right next to a wall. i don’t know what’s on the table or why i’m even standing there, but it’s at that point that i realize there’s another step of the process; i actually have to complete a brief phone interview before i can accept the dinner. of course, i know that i am not interested in the dude for he is much too stocky — but i decide i want to do it anyway, and that i will just asnwer the interview and tell him i have a boyfriend and have him choose if he wants to waste a dinner on someone who can’t be in a relationship with him. i head over to the opposite far corner from where i am (diagonal), and start to use the computer… there’s a female worker there that i do recall looking fancy and wearing white, like a flight attendant, but i don’t remember anything she says to me or does. we do interact briefly.

Street
To see a street in your dream symbolizes your life’s path. The condition of the street reflects how much control you have over the direction of your life. Consider also the name on the street as it may offer some significance or advice to the meaning of the dream.

Crowd
To dream that you are in or part of a crowd suggests that you need some space for yourself. You need solitude to reflect on a situation and recharge your energy. Consider also the familiar phrase of “going along with the crowd” which implies conformity and lack of individuality. Perhaps you feel that your own opinion doesn’t count or matter. Alternatively, dreaming of a crowd means that you need to incorporate the various aspects of the crowd into your own persona. To see a happy, orderly crowd in your dream indicates that you have a strong social support system.

(the crowd is mostly just kind of stern and business-like, and wearing drab colors…)

Surprise
To dream that you are pleasantly surprised indicates that you are opened in acknowledging and confronting your unconscious feelings.

Envelope
To see an envelope in your dream signifies anticipation or opportunity. If you are opening an envelope, then it represents a message that you or someone is trying to convey to you. Alternatively, the dream means that you are “pushing the envelope.” You are testing the limits or boundaries.

Blue
Blue represents truth, wisdom, heaven, eternity, devotion, tranquility, loyalty and openness. Perhaps you are expressing a desire to get away. The presence of this color in your dream, may symbolize your spiritual guide and your optimism of the future. You have clarity of mind. Alternatively, the color blue may also be a metaphor for “being blue” and feeling sad.

Purple
Purple is indicative of devotion, healing abilities, loving, kindness, and compassion. It is also the color of royalty, high rank, justice, wealth and dignity.

Invitation
To see or respond to an invitation in your dream suggests that you need to join or incorporate certain characteristics into yourself

Restaurant
To�dream that you are in a restaurant suggests that you are feeling overwhelmed by decisions and choices that you need to make in your life. Alternatively, it indicates that you are seeking for emotional nourishment outside of your social support system.

Store
To see or be in a grocery or convenience store in your dream suggests that you are emotionally and mentally strained. Alternatively, you may be brainstorming for new ideas or looking for the various choices out there for you. Alternatively, the dream may be a pun on what is in “store” for you. And thus it could signify the inevitable.

Interview
To dream that you are at an interview denotes your anxiety over being judged by others. You may be experiencing some dissatisfaction with some aspect of yourself.

dream #3
i am at some sort of curiosities museum. when i first enter, there are glass jars of something quite disgusting. i feel like they are teeth but that’s not right. they are reddish-pinkish in color. fuck, i wish i remember what they were. i’m with someone else. go into other room, and it opens up into a gallery… more bizarre stuff… don’t remember.

Museum
To�see a museum in your dream indicates that your non-traditional path to success will make you stand out from the rest. Sometimes you need to take a risk. Alternatively, the museum represents your own personal history. You can learn a lot from your past and your heritage. Consider what you have gained from these experiences and apply them to your current circumstances. To dream that you are in a museum,�represents the things you value in life.�Objects in the museum symbolizes memories and talents.

Jar
To see a jar in your dream symbolizes the feminine womb. You are seeking protection. The dream may also be a pun on feeling “jarred” or shaken up by something or someone.

Flesh
To notice your flesh in your dream represents a heightened sense of feeling and vitality. It symbolizes your sexual urges and physical desires. To dream of flesh being eaten suggests that you are under tremendous stress and feel drained.

Art Gallery
To dream that you are in an art gallery represents your past experiences. Something in your past is having an impact in your current situation. Alternatively, the dream may be telling you that you need to capture some moment and preserve it.

blood death, wine evasion.

vivian:
dream #1
i am somewhere with some guy and micah. there are a series of rooms, all of which are extremely dimly lit. corridors. a lot happens but i don’t really remember much of it, and then at some point i am fucking around and playing around with micah because i think his friend and him are talking about skateboarding moves and being goofy about them. i cut micah’s leg; we all have a good laugh or something. then his friend and i move into another room. later micah comes towards me and he is spurting blood everywhere from that wound, but somehow he’s light-hearted about it. i start to freak out and am like, wtf, did i cut his corrotic artery or something? but i have no actual clue if that is actually a thing or if that is THE thing or how to even spell it. i begin trying to google it on some indian woman (?)’s computer and i keep spelling it wrong in google because perhaps it doesn’t exist, but i’m so certain it exists in my dream — yet i keep mispelling it repeatedly. it’s exceptionally frustrating.

meanwhile, micah is still bleeding.. it’s gushing i think through his pants, which is crazy. while i’m still frantically trying to spell corrotic artery, i keep getting theser really intense search results. i remember one page that gets pulled up is one with a lot of images of women — super stock and sterile — against white or blue-white backgrounds, with flowers, crying, and the websites have blue text atop white backgrounds as well. or maybe purple-blue. in any case, the websites are all about grieving and what to do with dead bodies, and the indian lady, standing to my left, says something about how that doesn’t bode well for micah’s injury. it is at this point, and because of that comment, that i tell micah’s friend, who i standing behind me as i’m searching on the computer, to call 911. he finally does, and i’m not sure why no one did it earlier.

the freind or the indian lady, i forget who, tells me that the ambulance is here. i look up and see the flashing lights of their vehicles and micah is being put away on a stretcher. i don’t go there right away, still so worried about spelling the word right or something. in a matter of secnds, the stretcher is taken away and the vehicle is gone. i freak out some more and ask some man — older, seemingly famous, appeared from nowhere yet somehow knows all of us — what the ambulance and hospital had said. he said they had said literally nothing and had just slammed the door and left. he doesn’t seem particularly pleased about this or particularly bummed out. eventually the two of us sit down in the room where i was checking the computer on black cushions, kind of cross-legged across from each other. i’m not really sure what happens here…

fast-forward, and i think with a lash that i need to call micah’s girlfriend sarah because i’m the only one who knows about this and the hopistal didn’t take down any information so it’s not like he’ll be calling her anyitme soon. the thought crosses my mind and he’s gonig to wake up the next morning, all alone, and confused, nd i will not be able to do anything about it.

fast-forward. i’m soemwhere else,but it’s equaly a dark place. the layout is –kind– of the same, long, narow corridors, but there is definitely way more stuff in the rooms. the one where the computer would have been is slightly narrower, whereas the one where micah would have been cut is slightly larger. anyway, i’m calling sarah from a kitchen room or something — not sure how it is shaped — and she seems ummmmmmm. not as disturbed as i thought she would be. i thought they were madly in love but she tells me that her and micah broke up a while ago, essentially, and that she is currently dating a woman, but that she really loves me, and i get the sense that she has been broken up with micah for quite a while and has been dating another woman, but still has tons of flings on the side. that weirds me out.

fast-forward. i am in a room with a bunch of people, women, or something. they seem judgmental… at some point, i am wearing a costume and my costume involves a thin white paper cone dunce hat thing and a white dress or outfit of some sort. eventually, i am with someone else add we start to run through these dark rooms — particularly the one that leads to outside, whic his like a dark laundry room crammed with a bunch of shit. in the laundry room, we run into another guy who has just come home. he has tons of things carried under his arms (like giant boxes or something), and he has so much stuff it’s awkard for him to have entered the door by himself and without help. he gives me the impression of someone like uncle jesse from full house in that he is really comforting. i have been waiting for him quite a while because he is the anti-thesis of the judgemental people in the other room or something. i feel like that maybe in him there is some sort of equalizing factor that will either make their judgments neutral or will make them think differently of us? i’m not sure. me, in my white dunce cap outfit, rush outside with my friend (?) who seems to have emerged out of nowhere and he is wearnig a red gnome cap. we run as if we are fleeing something like embarrassment and go across the stret to this other house nd sit upon their lawn, right next tot he teps that lead up to their door, right in front of what is probably their living room window. there’s some sort of decorative quality to this house that seems to match very well in my head with our outfits, but i don’t rcall what that quality that is. we sit on their lawn, side by side, and it feels safe.

Corridor
To walk along a corridor in your dream signifies a transitional phase of self exploration. It signals spiritual enlightenment, emotional growth, physical prowess, new opportunities and mental passages in your life. If you are walking through a long corridor, then it represents your desperation in trying to escape a repetitive situation or some behavior patterns. You need to free yourself of this repetition. Alternatively, it symbolizes the choices and options that are available to you. You have a lot of things to consider.

Dim
To dream that it is dim indicates that you are lacking clarity in a waking situation. You need to shed some light or perspective on the issue. Alternatively, the dream may be a metaphor for someone who is dumb or stupid.

Cutting
To dream that you are cutting something signifies a broken relationship or severed connection. Alternatively, the dream may be a metaphor for something you need to “cut out” in your life. Perhaps it refers to a bad habit or a certain food.

Legs
To dream that your leg is wounded or crippled signifies a lack of balance, autonomy, or independence in your life. You may be unable or unwilling to stand up for yourself. Perhaps you are lacking courage and refuse to make a stand. If your dream that one of your leg is shorter than the other, then it suggests that there is some imbalance in some aspect of your life. You are placing more emphasis and weight on one thing, while ignoring other important aspects that need attention as well. If you are a woman and dream that your legs are hairy, then it suggests that you are domineering or that you dominate in the relationship.

Blood
To see blood in your dream represents life, love, and passion as well as disappointments. To dream that others are bleeding signifies an emotional cry for help.

Computer
To see a computer in your dream symbolizes technology, information, and modern life. New areas of opportunities are being opened to you. Alternatively, computers represent a lack of individuality and lack of emotions and feelings. Too often, you are just going along with the flow, without voicing your own opinions and views. You may also feel a depreciated sense of superiority. To dream that your computer has a mind of its own denotes anxiety about technology and loss of control. You are feeling overwhelmed and that you are at the mercy of another. To dream that a computer has a virus or has crashed suggests that something in your life that is out of control. It may parallel something in your life that has come to a crashing end.

Spelling
To dream that you are spelling a word suggests that you are trying to understand a difficult idea by breaking it down into smaller parts. To dream that you cannot spell indicates that you are having difficulties attacking a problem in your life.

Photograph
To see a photograph in your dream indicates that there is a relationship that needs your attention. You are not looking deep enough into the problem. Alternatively, the dream means that you are clinging on to the past or to some false hope.

Woman
To see a woman in your dream represents nurturance, passivity, caring nature, and love. It refers to your own female aspects or your mother. Alternatively, a woman indicates temptation and guilt. To see a group of women talking in your dream refers to some gossip.

Crying
To see someone else crying in your dream, may be a projection of your own feelings onto someone else. If you do not cry in your waking life, then seeing someone else cry may be a little easier to deal with then seeing yourself cry.

Death
To dream about the death of a loved one suggests that you are lacking a certain aspect or quality that the loved one embodies. Ask yourself what makes this person special or what you like about them. It is that very quality that you are lacking in your own relationship or circumstances. Alternatively, to see someone dying in your dream signifies that your feelings for that person are dead or that a significant change/loss is occurring in your relationship with that person. Alternatively, you may want to repress that aspect of yourself that is represented by the dying person.

Emergency
To dream of an emergency indicates that there is a urgent matter that needs your immediate attention. You are about to learn an important lesson.

Ambulance
To see an ambulance in your dream indicates that your careless activities and indiscretion may lead to major problems and complications. This dream may also stem from your own fears of contracting a disease or your deteriorating health. Perhaps, you should cease what you are doing and pay closer attention to some waking situation.
Stretcher
To dream that you are lying on a stretcher indicates your need to be rescued from some situation or relationship. Perhaps you need to take time out and confront your emotional demons.

Stretcher
To dream that you are lying on a stretcher indicates your need to be rescued from some situation or relationship. Perhaps you need to take time out and confront your emotional demons. To see a stretcher in your dream suggests that there is trouble ahead for you in the near future.

Sitting
To dream that you are sitting indicates your indecision. You do not know what you want to do about something. It also suggests that you are idling and wasting your life away.

Cushion
To see or use a cushion in your dream suggests that you are in need of more rest and relaxation. Alternatively, the dream may be a metaphor that you need to “cushion” or distance yourself against a hurtful situation or some offensive remarks.

Kitchen
To see a kitchen in your dream signifies your need for warmth, spiritual nourishment and healing. It may also be symbolic of the nurturing mother or the way that you are for your loved ones. Alternatively the kitchen represents a transformation. Something new or life altering is about to occur. The dream could also be telling you that if “you can’t stand the heat, then you need to get out of the kitchen”. You need to abort your plans.

Telephone
To see or hear a telephone in your dream signifies a message from your unconscious or some sort of telepathic communication. You may be forced to confront issues which you have been avoiding. Alternatively, the telephone represents your communication and relationship with others. To dream that you are having a telephone conversation with someone you know signifies an issue that you need to confront with that person. This issue may have to do with letting go some part of yourself.

Judgment
To dream that you are being judged indicates that you are being put through some test. You are seeking acceptance in order to move forward.

Clothing
To dream of your clothes is symbolic of your public self and how you are perceived. It is indicative of the act you put on in front of others. Clothes are also an indication of your condition and status in life. Thus, if you wear clothes that do not suit you or that you normally would not wear, then it suggests that you are putting up a front and trying to deceive others. Something in your life is “unsuitable”. It may be a symbol of hypocrisy and being someone that you are not. Alternatively, it could also mean that you are revealing a hidden part of yourself to the world.

Costume
To dream that you are wearing a costume indicates that you are putting on a facade toward others. You do not want to reveal your true self and are not being completely honest with people around you.

White
White represents purity, perfection, peace, innocence, dignity, cleanliness, awareness, and new beginnings. You may be experiencing a reawakening or have a fresh outlook on life.�Alternatively, white refers to a clean, blank slate. Or it may refer to a cover-up. In Eastern cultures, white is associated with death and mourning.

Paper
To see blank white paper in your dream signifies your desire to make a fresh start in your life. You need to express yourself through writing or art. Alternatively, blank paper indicates that you need to work on being more communicative.

Cone
To see a cone in your dream represents a flow of ideas and feelings.

Hat
To see or wear a hat in your dream indicates that you are hiding an aspect of yourself or that you are covering up something. Alternatively, it represents your attitude or the various roles and responsibilities you have in your waking life. To dream that you are wearing a top hat denotes your aspirations for wealth. It is also symbolic of male elegance and formality. If the top hat is knocked off your head, then it suggests a loss in your status of a fear that you will be stripped of your authority.

Laundromat
To dream that you are at a Laundromat represents a transformation or cleansing. You are ready to rid yourself of past hurts. It is time for new changes.

Clutter
To see clutter in your dream indicates that you need to clean up and organize a certain aspect of your life. The dream could be telling you that you need to let go of the past.

Man
To see a man in your dream denotes the aspect of yourself that is assertive, rational, aggressive, and/or competitive. Perhaps you need to incorporate these aspects into your own character.

Carry
To dream that you are being carried suggests that you are feeling like a burden to somebody. You need to be more independent and take on more responsibilities. Alternatively, it may elude to romance.

Friend
To see friends in your dream signify aspects of your personality that you have rejected, but are ready to incorporate and acknowledge. The relationships you have with those around you are important in learning about yourself. Alternatively, dreaming of a friend indicates positive news.

Red
Red is an indication of raw energy, force, vigor, intense passion, aggression, power, courage, impulsiveness and passion. The color red has deep emotional and spiritual connotations. Consider the phrase “seeing red” to denote anger. Alternatively, the color red in your dream indicates a lack of energy. You are feeling tired or lethargic.
Red is also the color of danger, violence, blood, shame, rejection, sexual impulses and urges. Perhaps you need to stop and think about your actions.

Embarrassment
To dream that you are embarrassed signifies hidden weaknesses, fears and lack of self-confidence. This dream also suggests that you are also harboring some insecurities about your sexuality.

Running
To dream that you are running away from someone indicates an issue that you are trying to avoid. You are not taking or accepting responsibility for your actions. In particular, if you are running from an attacker or any danger, then it suggests that you are not facing and confronting your fears.

Street
To see a street in your dream symbolizes your life’s path. The condition of the street reflects how much control you have over the direction of your life. Consider also the name on the street as it may offer some significance or advice to the meaning of the dream.

Neigborhood
To dream about your neighborhood represents a sense of community. You need to develop new friends and new ties. Consider your waking feelings toward your neighbors.

Neighbor
To dream of having a good neighbor signifies enjoyment and tranquility at home. If you dream of an angry or unfriendly neighbor, then it signifies dissension and disappointment. There is a waking issue that you need to address with your neighbor. Alternatively, the dream could mean relocation from your home. Perhaps you are in need of a change of scenery.

Lawn
To see a green lawn in your dream represents hope, pleasure, and well-being. You are in control and are making steady and smooth progress. If the lawn is overgrown or full of weeds, then it means that you are not taking good care of yourself.

dream #2
i’m in a wide open indor space with sherry, tin-win, jeanette, >, >, and i have just been entertaining them for an entire day. i’ feel like a failure of a host because i think the entire afternoon was spent doing really mundane shit with my family and that i had chosen to take my friends along on family activities and stayed for longer at those functions than probably ould have been entertaining for them (in real life this actually probably wouldn’t be a problem). tin-win, sherry, and jeanette are sitting and lounged about on cream-colored sofas, i think, and i get the impression that jeanette is kinda looking at something in her hands and has her legs kicked up a bit irreverently. i ask if they had fun during the day. jeanette tell me something like, “to be honest, no.” and then goes back to doing whatever she was formerly doing which is talking to everyone, i think, and i feel bad and ignored.

i think josh wu is nearby and he asks us if we want to go do something or go somewhere with him. i think i am the only taker. i look up at him, past some sofa, and he is holding up a giant beaker-like thing filled with purple wine. i tel him i’l go with him but that i’m not going to drink alcohol. he asks if i always avoid alcohol, and i say pretty much, and i think either he or someone else tries to offer me up alternatives to alcohol…

Glass
To see glass in your dream symbolizes passivity or protection. You may be putting up an invisible barrier to protect yourself in a situation or relationship. If the glass is dirty, cloudy or discolored, then it suggests that you are not seeing something clearly. You need more clarity in a situation. To dream that you are drinking from a glass is an omen of good luck.

Beaker
To see or use a beaker in you dream signifies your need to integrate various aspects of your life together. Alternatively, the dream represents logic and objectivity. Perhaps you need to try looking at a problem from a completely different perspective.

Wine Glass
To see a wine glass in your dream represents happiness. It may also be symbolic of a pregnancy. If you break the wine glass, then it may denote a miscarriage.

Wine
To dream of drinking wine symbolizes festivity, celebration, companionship, satisfaction and success. You are content with the way your life is going. The dream may also be a pun on “whining” and how you like to whine about things. In particular, to dream that you are drinking red wine signifies excess and sensuality.

what’s in store.

vivian:
dream #1
i am at some goth store with troy. i enter and look at some white paper for a second, but then decide it’s not that interesting. another girl and her friend (male?) are there and they’re looking at these thick-bound black portfolio books. i see them and they look interesting at first (there is a graphic on the front of a girl, with flourishes and designs) but then i decide that the design is slightly too unexciting and bad-looking for my liking and decide not to pick it up. on our way out of the shop, the store owner stops us and has a copy in her hands. she asks us we’ve seen it. the thing is a giant freaking book and i don’t remember anything in it, really, except for one page. there are vans brand shoes and i recall a page in particular where there are some $70 shoes that are half off ($35) plus free shipping (the free shipping is written somewhere else in the store). as we’re on that page, troy says that van is looking for a pair of these shoes — but i don’t think there’s the particular pair she wants (?) and i also don’t find a pair i want. the page we’re looking at is divided into panels with a black background to the page. the image / panel that sticks out has a line of shoes in a row — like eight of them — and they’re all flats or something but a couple of them — notably one with a bowling-shoe type design — is not a real shoe but a shoe cover, half a shoe you tie over your own. it’s grey and white. i take note of this, thinking it particularly interesting. close book. i think it’s then at the point where i notice the free shipping sign in the shop, and it’s also when the store owner begins to tell us about a project or grand opening or something at a fancy goth store in nyc (there’s also some other kind of collaboration, maybe a fashion show?). i somehow kof the goth store and say it was a really awesome one (pictured it in my head in the dream but i can’t really recall it in real life, though i think maybe it is the combination of two different shops in real life, and i can’t remember which cities they were in exactly). anyway, again i got ready to leave, but there’s a giant bin of — maybe — shoes? that we start looking through. i think again that troy mentions van is lookin g for vans (haha). next thing i know, the pile is this cocoon-like thing of really thin white material. one side of the pile is higher than the other, so i’m digging through the higher side trying to make it all flush all around. i know that the store owner has some candy hidden in there — and fruit — but as i get deeper and the side i’m digging in starts to become flatter than the other side, i find like, three bags of apples that seem to have been there for so long they’re slimy. one bag has some sort of candy. there are also three lollipops that are brown and caramel apple-looking though they’re not. i am immensely disgusted. i should also mention that those are being found as i peel away successive layers of this white muslin-like material. i get the impression that they’re exceptionally old. i mean… usually, i’d be all over candy and i actually contemplate eating the half-wrapped lollipops, but it’s too gross. if you’re to look at the mound from a sideview, it’d be like { PICTURE NEEDS TO BE INSERTED } with the black being the candy. i even deliberately took a step back from my position to look at the pattern made by the material because it all seemed so bizarre and the white was soooo thin. i finally decide to leave, again. start to head out the door and see that the owner has but the three semi-wrapped lollies now in a row, near the doorway, on this wall ledge { PICTURE NEEDS TO BE INSERTED }. there are now four figures displayed nicely on the wall ledge, and i remember being impressed by how she’s “spun” the grossness of the lollipops into something beautiful. on the far left of the ledge (as i’m facing it from the door) is one item that i don’t remember. to the right of that, with a space separating it, is another item i don’t remember. to the right of that, a clear blue glass pyramid. to the right of that, the stack of three lollipops.

Store
To see or be in a grocery or convenience store in your dream suggests that you are emotionally and mentally strained. Alternatively, you may be brainstorming for new ideas or looking for the various choices out there for you. Alternatively, the dream may be a pun on what is in “store” for you. And thus it could signify the inevitable.

Bookshelf
To see a bookshelf in your dream represents the various levels of your mind where ideas, concepts, and memories are kept. It also suggests your need to acquire some information or knowledge in a situation before making your decision.

Book
To see books in your dream indicate calmness. You are moving toward your goals at a slow and steady pace. Books also symbolize knowledge, intellect, information and wisdom. In particular, to see an open book in your dream means that you are able to grasp new ideas with ease. If the book is closed, then it represents your allure and mysteriousness. Consider the type of book for additional clues. The dream may represent your calling into a specific field of work or an area that you need to devote more study to.

Black
Black symbolizes the unknown, the unconscious, danger, mystery, darkness, death, mourning, rejection, hate or malice. The color invites you to delve deeper in your unconscious in order to gain a better understanding of yourself. It also signifies a lack of love and lack of support. More positively, black represents potential and possibilities. It is like a clean or blank slate. If the feeling in the dream is one of joy, then blackness could imply hidden spirituality and divine qualities.

Woman
To see a woman in your dream represents nurturance, passivity, caring nature, and love. It refers to your own female aspects or your mother. Alternatively, a woman indicates temptation and guilt.

(The book is closed, black, and with a woman on the front. Interesting… I get the sense that this dream is, in general, about my work and website. I have no idea what this could mean.)

Shoes
In general, shoes represent your approach to life. Wearing shoes in your dream suggests that you are well-grounded or down to earth. It also represents your convictions about your beliefs. If you are changing your shoes, then it refers to your changing roles. You are taking a new approach to life. If you forget your shoes, then it suggests that you are leaving behind your inhibitions. You are refusing to conform to some idea or attitude. Our ability, or otherwise, to be grounded and in touch with everyday life is symbolized in dreams by shoes. Shoes that we, or others, are wearing in a dream are there to alert us to an adjustment that needs to be made in our attitude to life. Lacing up shoes in a dream was once thought to be a well-known symbol of death as were shoes on a table. Today, these images are much more likely to indicate change is necessary.

(?!!!! Shopping for shoes is like shopping for one’s approach to life? Huh.)

Fabric
To see reams of fabric in your dream signify creativity. You are the one to shape your own experiences. Consider the color and pattern of the fabric and how it parallels a situation in your life. In mundane parlance, fabric in dreams is a tactile representation of something we need to know or remember. A rough fabric might denote a difficulty and a smooth fabric or material a carefully crafted project. Seeing fabric which has been mended or patched suggests that our original thoughts perhaps had an inherent flaw. A patch of the same colour may be an attempt to cover this up, whereas one of a different fabric or texture highlights a perhaps innovative solution.

White
White represents purity, perfection, peace, innocence, dignity, cleanliness, awareness, and new beginnings. You may be experiencing a reawakening or have a fresh outlook on life. Alternatively, white refers to a clean, blank slate. Or it may refer to a cover-up. In Eastern cultures, white is associated with death and mourning.

Thin
To dream that something or someone is thin represents a lacking strength and integrity. You feel that you are unable to hold your own or stand up for yourself. Alternatively, the dream indicates flexibility and agility. You are able to adapt to any situation.

Discovery
To dream of a discovery indicates that you are a entering a new phase of life or a new phase of personal development. Alternatively, the dream suggests you have uncovered an aspect of yourself which is significant to your waking life. Discovering the unexpected in dreams highlights information that is needed. The symbolism of the object or the idea will be important. Discovering a jewel, for instance, suggests something that is precious from an emotional perspective.

Find
To dream that you find something suggests that you are coming into contact with some aspect of your psyche or unconscious. You are recognizing a part of yourself that was previously repressed or undeveloped. Alternatively, it represents change. The mind has an uncanny knack of drawing our attention to what needs to be done to enable us to achieve our aims. It will use hiding, searching and finding as metaphors for effort we must make in the waking state. So to find something without having to make too much effort would show that events will take place that will reveal what we need to know. If we dream of finding a precious object, we are becoming aware of some part of ourselves that is, or will be, of use to us. We are making a discovery or a realization, which may be about us or about others.

Plastic Bag
To see or use a plastic bag in your dream represents the temporary burdens and responsibilities that you are carrying with you. You need to exercise better control in certain areas of your life. Alternatively, it denotes concern for the environment.

Slime
To see or feel slime in your dream represents your inability to place your trust in someone. The dream may be a metaphor for some one is a slimeball.

Fruit
To see fruit in your dream signifies growth, abundance and financial gain. They also symbolize lust and sexuality. In particular, green fruit in your dream denotes your hastiness and disappointed efforts. You need to work harder and longer in order to achieve your goals. To see or eat rotting/bitter fruit represents your missed opportunities for growth and pleasure. Alternatively, it indicates a situation or relationship that ended prematurely. You are expressing some regret.

Apples
To see apples growing in a tree in your dream symbolize knowledge, wisdom and great prosperity. Rewards are on the horizon for you. Consider also the common phrase, “an apple a day keeps the doctor away” which may imply that you need to take better care of your health. Perhaps you need to go to the doctor. To see rotten or eaten apples in your dream indicates that whatever you are striving and aiming for may not be fulfilling, and even harmful to you. It may also represent neglect and carelessness. Spiritually the apple is the fruit of temptation, yet it is also a magical fruit containing the seeds of knowledge and awareness. An apple suggests a new beginning and a freshness of approach. In many traditions it is the fruit of immortality. Apple blossom is a Chinese symbol of peace and beauty. Eating an apple symbolizes the wish to take in information or knowledge. This has an obvious connection with Eve’s temptation of Adam. As with many natural symbols, the phrases we use in the everyday can give rise to dream images. Thus to be giving someone an apple can suggest showing appreciation, whereas to pick up a rotten apple can signify meeting someone who is not good for us.

Candy
To see or eat candy in your dream symbolizes the joys and the special treats in life. It also represents indulgence, sensuality and/or forbidden pleasure. You may be devoting too much time to unimportant issues. To dream of making candy, denotes profit accruing from industry. To dream of eating crisp, new candy, implies social pleasures and much love-making among the young and old. Sour candy is a sign of illness or that disgusting annoyances will grow out of confidences too long kept.

Brown
Brown denotes worldliness, practicality, domestic bliss, physical comfort, conservatism, and a materialistic character. Brown also represents the ground and earth. You need to get back to your roots.

Lollipop
To see or lick a lollipop in your dream indicates surprises, new experiences and adventures. It also represents indulgence, sensuality and the pleasant aspects of your life.

(White thin fabric… a new outlook lacking strength?? But let’s see what I’m finding within this new outlook lacking strength… I am finding plastic bags with rotting slimy fruits — that is, temporary burdens with my inability to place my trust in someone, missed opportunities, and/or what I am striving and aiming for — but I am also finding candy — the joys and the special treats in life. Yet the candy is old — old with “worldliness, practicality, domestic bliss, physical comfort, conservatism, and materialism” — and seems disgusting…)

Blue
Blue represents truth, wisdom, heaven, eternity, devotion, tranquility, loyalty and openness. Perhaps you are expressing a desire to get away. The presence of this color in your dream, may symbolize your spiritual guide and your optimism of the future. You have clarity of mind.

Glass
To see glass in your dream symbolizes passivity or protection. You may be putting up an invisible barrier to protect yourself in a situation or relationship. If the glass is dirty, cloudy or discolored, then it suggests that you are not seeing something clearly. You need more clarity in a situation. To dream that you are drinking from a glass is an omen of good luck. To dream that you are looking through glass represents your openness and non-defensiveness. Alternatively, you may be putting up an invisible emotional barrier around yourself. Glass, being transparent, symbolizes the barrier between ordinary life and the life hereafter and between the physical and spiritual realms. It can also suggest the transparency of truth as we understand it. Dreaming of glass indicates the invisible but very tangible barriers we may erect around ourselves in order to protect ourselves from meaningful relationship with other people. They may also represent the barriers that other people put up and also be those aspects of ourselves that we have built up in our own defence.

Pyramid
To see a pyramid in your dream symbolizes longevity and stability. You have built a solid foundation for success. The pyramid always signifies a wider awareness of power and energy. There is a point inside the pyramid where all the planes intersect. This will regenerate any matter that is placed there, for instance razor blades will become sharp again. In a larger pyramid, that particular spot can be used for enhancing mystical experiences. In dreams, to enter a pyramid is to be searching for the meaning of life. A pyramid is a very powerful image. On a physical level, it is a building of wonder. On a mental level, it is a structure of regeneration. It will depend on our level of awareness as to which interpretation is valid.

(… yet the candy that formerly seemed disgusting actually turns and is repackaged into something that looks desireable. It is placed next to a blue pyramid — an image of openness, tranquility, and optimism for the future. Blue and glass are both somewhat symbols of that. The pyramid is a solid shape, lending strength to the idea of blue and glass.)

dream #2
i am headed to some tall (?), dark (?) building that i think is jeanette’s office (?) and people are playing videogames, but they are games that are also tied to real life. jeanette is managing the wheel of this racing game (where i guess if you crash it it affects you in real life). there is a carload of us, and i’m worried about the way she is driving because she is taking on a self-challenging mentality of doing it in a, “look ma! no hands!” kind of way. but the game is “cut” all crazy, like tv shows are these days, where there are jump cuts and lots of overlays and who knows what’s even going on. so much so that it is a racing game, but because the way jeanette’s playing it affects how tame look on-screen, what’s on-screen is totally hazy and looks like a blur and it seems like the camera is just straight pointing at the ground or something. i take over for her after she shows me proudly her, “look ma! no hands!” routine, and i’m bummed on it, telling her that she needs to pay more attention when she has so many people’s lives in her hands. i started driving, fully paying attention, with hands, but i’m driving super fast, the view on screen knida changes from the 3d graphical blur it was when jeanette was playing to a 2d overhead view like in the offroad arcade game or something. i am driving the car — evidently actually a mack truck — so fast that it is like a cartoon, completely teetering on two wheels (that’s be either the two right or two left, at any given time). it’s skidding through the curves, and on screen it looks like it’s just ridiculously flying through snaking curves and dodging the other mack trucks in the game. i’m passing a lot of people up though there are still some people in front of me (i only remember one “screen shot” from the dream). it’s definitely a race. the mack truck i’m driving looks like a sideways tilted rectangle when it’s driving. i remember being amazed that the truck can drive with two wheels on the ground at any given time — it’s like a pendulum or a see-saw or something in the way it’s turning corners — and nervous because, like i mentioned, the roomful of people in the room behind me (there are at least like 5, including jeanette and i) are actually all passengers on the mack truck.

Video Game
To dream that you are playing a video game represents your ability to manipulate others into doing what you want them to do. Alternatively, playing video game suggests that you are trying to escape from the problems in your real life, instead of confronting it. Consider the type of video game for additional insights. To see or dream that you are a character in a video game suggests that you are feeling controlled and manipulated by others. You feel that you have no control over your actions or are not taking responsibility for them.

Driving
To dream that you are driving a vehicle signifies your life’s journey and your path in life. The dream is telling of how you are moving and navigating through life. If you are driving on a curvy road, then it indicates that you are having difficulties in achieving your goals and accepting the changes associated with it. Metaphorically, driving a car in your dream is analogous to your sex life and sexual performance. Consider how you are driving and what kind of car you are driving and how it relates to your waking sex life. Or the dream may be a pun on your “drive” or ambition. To dream that someone else is driving you represents your dependence on the driver. You are not in control of your life and following the goals of others instead of your own. The car is very often representative of our own personal space, an extension of our being. It also stands for spiritual direction and motivation. Dream scenarios involving cars are often much to do with what we are doing to ourselves on a psychological or emotional level. Being alone in a vehicle indicates independence, while dreaming of the brakes shows our ability to be in control. The car engine indicates the essential drives with which we have to deal. To dream of being in a car usually alerts us to our own motivation, thus driving the car can indicate our need to achieve a goal, while being a passenger could indicate that we have handed over responsibility for our lives to someone else.

Semi Truck
To see a semi truck in your dream indicates that you are feeling overburdened or that you are being taken advantage of. You feel that you are pulling more than your own weight and it is time that others share in some of the responsibilities. Alternatively, the dream symbolizes size, largeness and power.

Race
To dream that you are in a race, foretells that others will aspire to the things you are working to possess, but if you win in the race, you will overcome your competitors. If you dream that you win a race, then it represents your full potential and your ability to achieve your goals. You are feeling empowered and able to overcome your obstacles and those who stand in your way. The dream gives you confidence and may be a “rehearsal” for your success.
If you dream you lose the race, then it indicates that you may be overextending yourself. You are setting your goals too high.

(Pretty self-explanatory, I’d say, though not necessarily with a clear end.)

strange sex.

vivian:
i am talking to bryan about metal, since he’s a metal artist, but we soon have sex. i am on top, and it is really, really not active. there is a projector in the room, flashing. i feel like there are tones of red. gina is in the room, too, on the far side. it is similar to the room that i slept in last night (in real life) just with a projector and different things in the room. somehow the dream becomes a fractalized version of itself, where it references itself, like the same dream within the same dream. i don’t recall exactly how that happens but it is so fascinating a concept that i wake up from my sleep. generally there is relation of the dream to kabbalah, though i don’t remember how. there is an idea that three to five (out of timothy leary’s eight-circuit model) have been “taken care of”, or fulfilled. i think perhaps we’re talking about a piece of art? not sure.

vivian:
i am watching television with a bunch of dudes in a dark room. they start singing a frat boy-like song about south park’s towelie or someone equally dumb. fast-forward and we’re outside. fast-forward, and we’re in a movie theatre. gina is there; there is a guy to my left. his friend and another guy both really want to date her, but the friend is jealous because he is clearly “winning.” the friend walks out of the theatre we are in. gina was on stage (???) and gets off and sits next to the dude; i am not sure why she was on stage. he says something flirty but cryptic that admits that he likes her, and does it with, “if you know what i mean,” and slightly turns to me at the end of the sentence. i say i don’t think she knows but she proves me wrong by flirting back. i can’t see but she puts him in essentially a head lock, pulls him close, and looks into his eyes. i expect her to kiss him and think about chance, but she is just looking into his eyes and listing reasons she does not like him. she says she hates the guy songs he sings, something else, and lastly, that his dick smells like????? something like cheese, but way more random.

it is a time for transformation.

vivian:
[1]
sherry is a child. her mom is there. i think sherry is facing a wall and scribbling on a canvas that is propped up against the wall. i think that she is scribbling on it, but what she’s scribbling (or maybe what is already on there and her scribbling isn’t making anything new or is just continuing to contribute to that image) is that drawing of her running up a hill (the one in their living room).

Walls Definition from dreammoods.com
To see a wall in your dream signifies limitations, obstacles, and boundaries. There is a barrier obstructing your progress. Alternatively, the wall indicates that you are too accustomed to your old habits and way of thinking. You feel stuck. To dream that you demolish or break down a wall indicates that you are breaking through obstacles and overcoming your limitations. It also means that you desire some freedom and independence. If you see a wall crumble, then it suggests that you have risen above your problems and overcame your barriers. To dream that you are hiding behind a wall suggests that you ashamed in acknowledging your connections. To dream that you are being thrown or shot through a wall means that you need to literally breakdown those walls that you have put up around you. You need to venture out and explore.

Walls Definition from dreamsmeaning.org
A wall symbolizes the boundaries of a sacred space. We need to be aware of what our limitations are, not just spiritually but also emotionally. A wall has the symbolism of a dividing line – a marker between the inner and the outer, privacy and open trust. A hole in a wall suggests a breach of trust or privacy. If the wall is imprisoning us we are being held prisoner by our own fears, doubts and difficulties. If the wall appears and disappears, we have only partly dealt with our problem. These may be created as defence mechanisms or support structures, and it is sometimes helpful in the interpretation to decide whether the walls have been created in order to keep ourselves in, or other people out.

Drawing
To dream that you are drawing represents an expression of your latent artistic abilities. You need to show more of your creativity in your waking life. Alternatively, the dream may be a pun on a “draw” to mean a tie or some undecided decision or argument. “It’s a draw.”

Canvas
To see a canvas in your dream symbolizes potential and possibilities, especially if the canvas is blank. Consider the significance of what is on the canvas as, it is an aspect of your unconscious.

[2]
i am looking through sherry’s eyes. she’s facing a wall again, and she’s writing down a sentence she had read somewhere or been told by someone — only the version she’s writing down is extremely different from the version that it actually is. it seems like a translation or reinterpretation, and it is more destructive or “real” or something? the initial one was very childish; it was equally long, but the message it was conveying was very simple. her transcription might start with something like “there was”. not sure. when i first woke up i really remembered both sentences but have since forgot it.

Copying
Copying in spiritual terms signifies reproducing the perfect, producing duality where there was previously only one. It represents emanation, flowing out from the Divine. To be copying an action in dreams suggests we need to learn from others. When we find ourselves making copies we are aware that we need to retain information for ourselves. Such a dream can suggest the idea of reproduction.

Writing
To dream that you are writing signifies communication with someone or with your conscious mind. Alternatively, writing refers to an error in judgment or a mistake that you have made. The dream may also be a metaphor that you are “right” or that your political views are right leaning. To see ancient writings in your dream suggests that there is something you need to learn and understand from the past.

assessment of definitions:
i feel very strongly that these past three dreams i’ve had about sherry are prophetic, and that this upcoming period of time will be extremely transformative for her. its particularly interesting to me that both of these first dreams are dealing with walls, but her writing top or within the confines of the walls to create very new things. i don’t think i’ve ever had a dream where i’ve been looking through the eyes of someone else i know.

[3]
i’m with my mom and we have opera tickets, so we’re headed there. we’re fairly early, and there are a hundred seats or something, but there’s no line (there are scattered people) when we go because it’s so early. there is a huge row of turnstiles, like at bart or something. there’s at least eight of them. my mom is in front of me. she scans her ticket but the turnstile turns by itself before she goes through all the way and she’s kinda stuck in-between. i too scan my ticket and am surprised (as i was when my mom scanned hers) that it is actually like a barcode scanning device rather than something you slide or put the ticket into. similarly, my ticket is scanned and the turnstile turns before i even get through it (in fact, i don’t even START to go through it, whereas my mom had). my mom ends up having to climb through or duck under (i don’t recall) the last bar, and i end up having to climb through all three as well. there was an asian dude who was checking tickets, kinda, or was a security guard or something, and he is fairly far away in this big room thing (it opens up a bit after you get through the turnstile). he seems to start to come over and i start thinking that i need other people to back up my claim to prove that we didn’t just hop the turnstile. i think i want to reference the person behind me (it seems like there’s now a line, kinda), and i think she seems ready to help us explain the situation.

Line
To see a line in your dream symbolizes duality, limits, boundaries and rules. It also relates to movement or non-movement. To see a line of people or objects indicates that you need to be more aware of some situation or relationship. Spiritually in dreams a line can have great significance. The straight line can represent time and the ability to go both forward and back. When horizontal the line is the earthly world and the passive point of view; when vertical it is the spiritual world, the active aspect and the cosmic axis. Psychologically, we tend to need boundaries or demarcation lines, and those lines can be demonstrated in dream symbolism in ways that might not be feasible in everyday life. For instance, jumping over a line would suggest being brave enough to take risks. A line of objects might signify the choices we are offered. A line in a dream often marks a boundary or denotes a measurement. In dreams, it can also signify a link between two objects to show a connection that is not immediately obvious. A straight line suggests a direct approach, the shortest way between two objects or places. A line of people or queue would suggest an imposed order for a particular purpose. If we are waiting in line, the purpose of the line will be important in interpretation.

Opera
To watch an opera in your dream represents your quest for the grander things in life. The dream may also be trying to tell you that you are being overly dramatic in some waking situation.

Ticket
To see a ticket in your dream represents the price you need to pay to attain your goals. You have decided on your path in life. A ticket signifies the start of a new endeavor. Consider also the type of ticket. Generally, a ticket suggests that there is a price to pay for something. A bus ticket would indicate that there is a price for moving forward, as might a train ticket. A ticket to a theatre or cinema may suggest we need to take a back seat and be objective over a part of our lives. Tickets to a football or rugby match might mean that we will have to pay for some area of conflict in our lives.

Confusion
To dream that you are confused, reflects your true confused state of mind and the nonsensical events of your waking life. Isolate the single element in your dream that is confusing to you and analyze the meaning of that particular symbol. Alternatively, dreams of confusion indicate that you are being pulled in opposite directions or you do not know which viewpoint is right.

Machinery
To see machinery in your dream suggests that you are too mechanical – going about your way without much thought and making decisions without thinking it through. You need to get out of your boring pattern. Alternatively, the machinery symbolizes your mind or your body. Examine how the machinery is running and its condition and function. If the machinery is in need of repair, then it suggests that you may need to repair aspects of your self-image or a relationship. If the machine is rusty, then it signifies an outdated way of doing something.

Bar
To see a metal bar in your dream represents your own inner strength. You have the ability and tools to build a solid foundation and future. Alternatively, metal bars symbolize defiance and aggression.

Climb (only because I can’t think of what other term would be better)
To dream that you are climbing up something (ladder, rope, etc.) signifies that you are trying to or you have overcome a great struggle. It also suggests that your goals are finally within reach. Climbing also means that you have risen to a level of prominence within the social or economic sphere.

Security Guard
To see or dream that you are a security guard suggests that you are seeking security in some situation or relationship. The dream is compensating for the lack of security in your waking life. Alternatively, the dream means that there is something of value that you want to protect. In dreams, when we become conscious of someone standing guard or guarding an object we perhaps need to be careful of our actions.

assessment of definitions:
i’m hoping this dream is prophetic, and that big things are on the horizon… trying to figure out the technicalities of it, but it seems to be that things will be faster than anticipated? i’m really not sure.

[4]
i am in some room — like a really brightly lit backstage studio makeup room (though there are no chairs) — with another girl. it might be sherry, but i can’t be sure. we are putting on lipstick (i actulaly think that person first shows me how), only it is a kinda chunky powdery substance, similar to flour in consistency. you dip your fingers into but then it works like regular lipstick when you put it on your lips. it turns from dry to wet, dull to shiny. i choose this really light shade and look in a mirror to put it on. it makes my lips a light pearl color, and it looks rather good, although it is really dramatic. i am reminded of a ballet dancer or something, i dunno why. i take pigment from another lipstick shade and this one is a darker pink. i use it to put a line down the middle of my bottom lip, like kabuki makeup, and it looks pretty awesome. to my left is another room, and in it are three girls; one is lying down on a bed and sleeping. two others are doing i dunno what but i seem to get the impression that they know about this makeup too (?) the room is really dimly lit. when i look back at the mirror at my lipstick, the kabuki line i had added is still there, but it has faded to be closer to the color of the really light pink lipstick shade. but then i look closer and the whole thing has begun to crack, and from the center of the bottom lip, begins to peel off like a piece of gluestick that has been congealed together on your hands.

Mirror Definition from dreammoods.com
To dream of your own reflection in the mirror suggests that you are pondering thoughts about your inner self. The reflection in the mirror is how you perceive yourself or how you want others to see you. You may be contemplating on strengthening and changing aspects of your character. Mirrors symbolize the imagination and the link between the conscious and unconscious.

Mirror Definition from dreamsmeaning.org
The mirror in dreams suggests self-realization, which reflects spiritual wisdom. As a means of understanding ourselves on a deeper level, we can set up a dialogue in real life between our mirror image and ourselves. Many of the insights gained can be quite startling. As a symbol in dreams it allows us to search our self-image and make whatever changes are necessary. To be looking in a mirror can signify trying to look behind us without letting others know what we are doing. We may have a concern over past behaviour. We may also need to ‘reflect’ on something we have done or said. When the image in the mirror is distorted we are having a problem in understanding ourselves. When the mirror image speaks to us we should be listening more closely to our inner selves.

Reflection
To see your reflection in your dream represents your true self; it is time to look within. The reflection may highlight both your flaws and positive attributes. Learn from your flaws and how to improve them.
Symbolically Spiritual truth that is available to us at any particular stage of understanding is often shown to us as though in a reflection. It is as if we need an image that gives us tangibility. Often, to see a reflection in a dream is to try to be understanding the inner self and the way that we cope with the outside world. If in a dream the two images do not correspond, we will need to make some kind of adjustment in order to live comfortably within the everyday world. Our inner self must give the impetus to the outer reality. A reflection seen in a dream has a great deal to do with the way we see ourselves at that particular moment. Our self-image is important to us, as is the way other people see us. If the reflection is in a mirror, then our image will be perhaps more ‘solid’, whereas one seen in water will be more transient. The story of Narcissus and the way he fell in love with himself (or rather his own image) is a warning to all of us against self-worship.

Powder
To see something powdery in your dream suggests that you need to be more refined in your behavior and speech.

Lipstick
To buy, see, or wear lipstick in your dream suggests that you are not entirely truthful about something. The dream seeks to draw attention to your lips. Perhaps you need to be careful about what you or someone else is saying. Alternatively, it signifies sexuality and sensuality, especially if the color is red.

Makeup
To dream that you are applying makeup suggests that you are trying to cover up or conceal an aspect of yourself. Alternatively, it indicates that you are putting on your best face forward. You are trying to enhance your self-image and increase your sense of self-confidence.

Shiny
To see something shiny in your dream represents your potential that has yet to be unleashed. Consider the significance of the shiny object as it holds something important.

Wet
To dream that you are wet indicates that you are overcome with emotions. It also signifies a spiritual cleansing, rebirth or renewal. Alternatively, the dream may imply sexual arousal.

Colors
Colors in dreams represent energy, emotions, and vibes. First consider what that single color in your dream means to you and your own personal associations and relationship with that color. In general, pale pastel colors indicate weakness or subtlety. Dark colors represent passion and intensity. Bright colors mean awareness.

Pink
Pink represents love, joy, sweetness, happiness, affection and kindness. Being in love or healing through love is also implied with this color. Alternatively, the color implies immaturity or weakness, especially when it comes to love. Consider also the notion of getting “pink slipped”.

Ballerina
To dream that you are a ballerina suggests that you are moving through the obstacles of your life effortlessly. You feel unrestricted. It is also a symbol of innocence, frailty, and vulnerability. Alternatively, you may feel unable to attain and measure up to society’s ideals of beauty. The fairylike appearance of the classical ballerina within a dream shows we are making a connection with the creative energy within. Also we are searching for balance and poise.

Bright
To dream that something is bright represents divinity, a higher consciousness, and spirituality. You need to show your honor toward an important an person or situation. The dream may also be a metaphor for intellect and someone who is smart. If your dream is particularly bright and vivid, then it could indicate a prophetic or epic dream.

Dim
To dream that it is dim indicates that you are lacking clarity in a waking situation. You need to shed some light or perspective on the issue. Alternatively, the dream may be a metaphor for someone who is dumb or stupid.

Peel
To dream that you are peeling something represents the shedding away of old ways, habits and conditions. It may also mean that you are finally getting rid of and discarding unneeded exterior pretenses.

assessment of definitions:
there are a LOT of parallel symbols here, stacked atop one another. i think it all has to do with my book that i just finished writing. i have been feeling slightly wary about some parts of it and wondering if just how open i should be about its information because it could potentially hurt some people. the dream seems to be telling me to reassess these things, but at the same time, seems to be saying that the book in general is a positive thing. i think.

a hand at tarot.

vivian:
not much to speak of that i remember. sherry is getting a tarot reading or something, though it is not quite exactly that. what i remember is something i woke up feeling was fairly important, though. she evidently passed on the first card she was dealt (this is not like the rules of tarot at all, i don’t think) and the second card she got spoke to her so deeply that she held onto it or something, and wanted to get a tattoo of it, or SOMETHING. i don’t remember what the card was other than that it was very symmetrical, and very balanced, and essentially meant two complementary halves coming together. i have vague recolletions of dragons as a symbol, though i’m not sure if that was from this dream or a previous one in the same night.

Dragons
To see a dragon in your dream represents your strong will and fiery personality. You tend to get carried away by your passion, which may lead you into trouble. You need to exercise some self-control. In the eastern cultures, dragons are seen as spiritual creatures symbolizing good luck and fortune. To dream that you are a dragon and breathing fire suggests that you are using your anger to get your own way.

Tarot Cards
To dream of a tarot reading indicates your current situation and state of mind. You are open to exploring your unconscious thoughts and feelings. Pay attention to what the Tarot Cards reveal. Consider the following general meanings of the four Tarot suits: The Wands represent fire, inspiration, spirituality, action, initiative, and the Psyche. The suit of the Swords signify air, determination, strength, faith, and conquering of fear. The Cups symbolize water, emotions, purity, and your outlook toward life and the future. The Pentacles denote finances, social influence, worldly knowledge, and your connection with nature and earth.

a messy house of confusion.

i am upstairs in an attic or something. it’s someone else’s house, i think sherry’s. tin-win is sitting on the bed next to me, sherry in one corner to my right, near the door, someone else to my back left (female) on a chair, someone else to the far back left in the corner (male) on a chair. i feel like there is a shower in the top right corner of the room. it is a square room. a dresser sits to the top left.

there are three distinctive bags of candy strewn about on sherry’s bed, and i ask her if we can eat from one of them. two of the bags seem to be kit-kat varieties initially, though i’ve never seen them before. i make tin-win and sherry choose which bag to eat from; tin-win chooses the kit-kats that look like they’re in a normal wrapper, and sherry chooses some that are in a white wrapper. i’m not sure what the reasoning is — there is some kind of arbitrary reasoning — but i choose sherry’s. i throw one to her and she breaks off one strip of the four, then throws it to tin-win, who comments on how it is smart that she broke off one piece of the four. she throws it to me, and i pass it along to the people behind me. i don’t actually recall eating it myself, and if in fact ther were four pieces and everyone else took a piece, i dunno how i would have eaten the piece.

so initially, we’re throwing around the entire bag, i believe, but by the time the wrapper gets in my hands, it is just a solitary wrapper. i feel like it is turkish, and i think i may even say that, but when i look at it, it actually has chinese writing. it’s not actually a kit-kat, either.

fast-forward a bit, and this might even be an entirely different dream. i am in a living room, and i think it is my house. it has dark walls. it is elegantly furnished, victorian-esque, i believe. i think it’s just me, maybe. troy (my boyfriend) is somewhere else but i recall being in touch with him over the telephone or something, though we don’t have a direct conversation. at some point, troy one emerges, and he is sitting at the dining room table, made of dark wood. it seems he has a letter i had written him — perhaps THE letter i had written him — and is commenting on it like it was no big deal, like we were still friends, like it was fine. he was asking me about a book i had bought him, and i told him that i didn’t have it anymore because i had lent it to someone in seattle and he had never returned it (that was the truth, in real life). he then asked me if i still wanted to do _______ if i wasn’t going to ethiopia, and i thought in my head that i wasn’t going to ethiopia, but i might be going to portugal, and anyway, i didn’t want to do that…

at some point i am standing fairly far away from him in the room, and he comes up to me and hugs me. i hug him back, and it feels really, really good to be hugging him like that. but then he turns my face towards him, and i really don’t want to look at him because i feel i know what will happen, and what i feel will happen does happen — he starts to kiss me, a lot, on the lips. small pecks. i tell him that i can’t. i think i say i have a boyfriend. i even start tearing up and one rolls down my face. he stops.

fast-forward. we’re in the kitchen. troy is standing to my front right, lenny to my front left. the refrigerator is directly in front of me. lenny meets him and is like, “oh! you’re troy!” as if he knew, though in real life he probably wouldn’t recognize the name and reference. he jokes with troy, “i just started dating her,” and he says oh, and then lenny laughs and is like, “just kidding!” and i don’t know if he says he is my ex-boyfriend or not. i think he does.

fast-forward, and i think lenny turns into my brother phil, or phil just appears and lenny disappears. in either case, phil is weirded out that troy is there and asks if we want to go take a walk around the neighborhood. then asks if we want to go eat sushi. i’m not actually sure that i want to take a walk around the neighborhood, but i agree to. we get outside and it looks like we’re in england, really way back when, with all cobblestone streets, lots of grey, tall buildings. it seems like victorian-era england, though we’re dressed just normally.

we’re walking, and then we come across some broken down cars or something. also grey. old-school. i dunno why but we’re there FOREVER and my brother is trying to help fix them or something, though it’s not like he knows anything about cars and he physically is doing nothing. it’s like he’s just standing around looking at them, but that he feels like he needs to. the back tire, at least in the one troy is standing in front of, is busted and looks like it’s falling apart. there is no driver. my brother is standing near the other car.

meanwhile, i am getting impatient. troy is standing near the second of the cars, doing nothing in particular, and i go talk to my brother, who is standing by the first car, about how i want to leave to go eat sushi and also ask him if i should ask troy just what the fuck happened to him all these months. my brother says that i shouldn’t, but i contradict him and argue that i think i should. i want to leave so i can question him about just what the fuck. i think i wake up.

Attic
To see an attic in your dream represents hidden memories or repressed thoughts that are being revealed. It also symbolizes your mind, spirituality, and your connection to the higher Self. Alternatively, it signifies difficulties in your life that may hinder you from attaining your goals and aspirations. However, after a long period of struggle, you will overcome these difficulties. To see a cluttered attic in your dream is a sign to organize your mind and thoughts. Perhaps, you need to rid yourself of the past and let go of the past emotions that are holding you back.

Bedroom
To dream that you are in the bedroom signifies aspects of yourself that you keep private. It is also indicative of your sexual nature and intimate relations.

Drawers
To see drawers in your dream signify your inner and hidden state and being. In particular, a disorderly drawer represents internal chaos and turmoil while an orderly drawer signifies calmness. Alternatively, a drawer symbolizes your reserves. There is something that you have stored away, but are now ready to use or express. If the drawer is full, then it symbolizes your many resources. If the drawer is empty, then it denotes your need to fulfill your goals.

Candy
To see or eat candy in your dream symbolizes the joys and the special treats in life. It also represents indulgence, sensuality and/or forbidden pleasure. You may be devoting too much time to unimportant issues. To dream of eating crisp, new candy, implies social pleasures and much love-making among the young and old.

Share
To dream that you are sharing something symbolizes your generosity toward others. Perhaps you need to be more generous with your feelings.

Table
To see a table in your dream represents social unity and family connections. If the table is broken, wobbly or not functional, then it suggests some dissension in a group. It may also refer to a sense of insecurity. Perhaps there is something you cannot hold inside any longer and need to bring it out in the open.

Memory
To dream about a memory suggests that you are ready to rid yourself of your old ways and undergo a transformation. You are ready for a new outlook in life. Recalling a memory in your dream may also be less of a shock then if you had recalled the memory in your waken state. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you have learned from your past experiences.

Hugging
To dream that you are hugging someone symbolizes your loving and caring nature. You are holding someone or something close to your heart. Alternatively, it may indicate your need to be more affectionate.

Kissing
If someone tries to kiss you against your will, then it means that someone is shoving their ideas, beliefs and opinions in your face. He or she is forcing you to do something that you do not really want to do. This dream may also mean that you are refusing to accept some repressed aspect of yourself. If you are kissed by a stranger, then your dream is one of self-discovery. You need to get more acquainted with some aspect of yourself.

Tears
To dream that you are in tears signify that you are undergoing a period of healing in your life. The tears symbolize compassion, emotional healing and spiritual cleansing. Alternatively, tears indicate pain.

Kitchen
To see a kitchen in your dream signifies your need for warmth, spiritual nourishment and healing. It may also be symbolic of the nurturing mother or the way that you are for your loved ones. Alternatively the kitchen represents a transformation. Something new or life altering is about to occur. The dream could also be telling you that if “you can’t stand the heat, then you need to get out of the kitchen”. You need to abort your plans. In a woman’s dreams a kitchen symbolizes how she nurtures others.

City
Dreaming of a city, particularly one known to us, is to be trying to understand our sense of community; of belonging to groups. If you dream of a big city, then it suggests that you need to develop closer ties and relationships. You are feeling alienated and alone. To dream that you are in a deserted city indicates that you feel rejected by those around you. To dream of a city in ruins denotes that you are neglecting your social relationships and allowing them to deteriorate.

Victorian
To dream that you are in the Victorian period indicates that you are feeling sexually repressed. You feel you are unable to full express yourself.

Gray
Gray indicates fear, fright, depression, ill health, ambivalence and confusion. You may feel emotionally distant isolated, or detached. Alternatively, the color gray symbolizes your individualism.

Car
In modern times most people will dream about the car or other similar forms of transport. Dreaming of a carriage, such as a horse-drawn one, could be suggestive of old-fashioned attitudes to modern thinking. All vehicles reflect the physical body, so anything wrong with the vehicle may alert us to a problem. A car in particular is a reflection of a person’s self-image and possibly sexuality and indeed any part of a car has significance. The back tires might suggest our support system, the steering wheel the way we control our lives and so on.

Tires
To see tires in your dream suggest that you are dwelling too much in the past and need to move on toward the future. It also refers to your emotional health and your ability to bounce back from adversity. You are able to carry yourself from one situation to another with confidence. To see or dream that you have a flat tire indicates that you are feeling emotionally drained and weary. Your goals are temporarily hindered and as a result, you are unable to progress any further. To dream that your tires have no more tread suggests that are unable to get any traction toward achieving your goals. Decay in dreams is evidence of the natural cycle of life:growth, decline and regeneration. Out of decay comes new growth and knowledge.

assessment of interpretations:
not sure, but there are certainly recurring themes of:
[1] letting go of the past;
[2] sexual confusion and frustration.
i will say that all of these things have been on my mind and were also discussed last night right before going to bed. the victorian-era thing seems natural to associate with troy one as well, so i wonder if, in general, he just represents the entirety of the victorian era (inability to express oneself sexually) as a whole, or if it is him in particular… because i can’t figure out why he would appear in my dream after so long…

a night of many dreams.

[1]
i am giving someone an interview about the new REDEFINE. i have a slight bit of stumbling over words towards the end, but it is generally all fine. eventually she gives me a metal box or something that is the shape of a band-aid container. i open it up at these metal push pins — the ones that are shaped like t’s made of wire — come spilling out.

[2]
forget.

[3]
carnival-concert-type setting. there is one particular shopkeeper, and he has set up an installation in his shop where these mannequins are hiding out in a bathtub. the shop next door is where i spend more of my time (i don’t go into the one where the bathtub is), but i do think it’s a great installation. jeanette is there or on the phone (i’m not sure) and tells me that she has two tickets to a show tonight for thrice and some other similar band — thursday, i think — and asks me if i want to go. it’s evidently new Year’s Eve, and i’m not interested, but i think she needs someone to take photographs for her. i decline, but i try and ask two of my writers but confuse kyle with aeryn because they both came from “that world” in my mind. turns out it’s aeryn, and he’s slightly stressed out (he also looks more like kyle, though not really — maybe he is a visual blend of the two) and says that he needs time to plan. really, though, i don’t care that much and am just wanting him to go if he wants to go, and i tell him this. not sure what he eventually decides, or if he eventually decides anything. Later on, i talk to the tub shop owner man later on and he is bummed that his installation doesn’t really make him money, because it doesn’t have much to sell. both shops are vintage shops. i tell him that he should just put new items in and he says that would mess up the scene. i say he should just put in items that fit within the current scene, and he points to my hair and says, “Like hair clips?” and i picture hair clips with flowers attached to it and agree, though i don’t know if i rEaLLY agree, in retrospect. but then he says that he doesn’t think it’s worth it, essentially, because the installation-shop is only lasting until tomorrow. From there i think we go to the shop next door and suddenly it’s more like an office building, and him and the owner of that shop both sit down at computers and i take it as my cue that i should leave. i think it’s around 5pm to 7pm and i text troy to try and meet up with him at another menu. a map of the layout of the place flashes in my mind, and i consider where i am supposed to meet him; it feels like it is far away but when the map pulls up, i realize it’s not really very far away at all. in fact, it’s right across the way, kitty-corner to the shops. He texts me back and says he’ll be there soon (i don’t know the exact words; that’s just the vibe i get) and i start to head over there…

[4]
this is kind of connected to dream number three in that it is in a similar carnival-concert type setting, only the storefronts are gone and i’m not quite sure where i am. i am in a roomful of people, and there is a filthy, filthy event going on. it begins with a bunch of like teenage girls and one guy, i think. they are behind glass, i think. the guy has what looks like a giant gummy worm, and everyone is sitting in a square formation in front of what looks like a giant pile of gummy worms and booze and i don’t know what else. the guy is told to use the gummy worm to slap it about, and he starts by poking the giant gummy worm into the neck of the girl exactly opposite him, and there’s this video game-violence-esque burst of what looks like gushers juice or something that represents the blood of her getting stabbed in the neck or something. it’s not real. anyway, everyone starts going to town (eventually another guy appears though i’m not sure if he was there from the start or what) and starts eating and drinking and i’m not sure what the objective is.i have the vague sense that people are throwing up, though now when i think about it, i can’t even picture someone doing that in the dream. but i do feel like that was the ultimate objective or something. there’s a part that zooms in on what looks like a sink drain and in one of the grates of the sink drain, jeanette’s head is popping out. i picture what it looks like underneath, and what it looks like underneath is her floating in a giant vat of water. the idea is that people would puke into that drain or something and there is a slight bit of water in it right now, but if anyone puked in there jeanettould stand up in the tank that she was floating in and that would push her head up above the water and puke. it seemed like a strange system, and jeanette seemed miniature. Eventually people start dropping out and it seems like it is a test of who can eat the most and drink the most although there is no actual measure. the other guy drops out and he comes over and sits next to me and looks at me and (possibly?) jeanette and says, “they are so drunk,” of the two main girls who are left behind. One of the girls, a brunette, stops and comes over and she’s practically crawling on the ground and gives this little “sexy” wink, only it’s not really particularly sexy at all. soon the guy next to me gives me his business card or something? i think it’s black with white text. Only it’s not really His business card; he has taken some other guys’, with the same info, and scratched off his name and replaced it with his own. not sure how he did that considering the white on black text thing.