falling apart.

vivian:
[#1]
Troy Two and I are discussing the need to travel somewhere. He buys me a really beautiful loaf of bread, it is green on the surface, like it has been rubbed with a pesto. It is from France, or something, or represents France. It is supposed to be a surprise, and he is preparing to give it to me, even though I already kind of know about its existence. We move from one table to another (I think). We are sitting at a table. Shawn comes in and begins talking to him. Troy is already eating a piece of bread, like a large piece, just holding it in his left hand and ripping off pieces. I soon look at the table and realize that the piece of bread he was supposed to give me is half-eaten, all of the crispier edges of it bitten off. What’s left is the inside hunk, and I say something along the lines of how, wasn’t that bread for me? And he looks embarrassed, maybe, and apologetic, but the next time I look at the table, he has eaten it all, and I think he may have apologized again, but I say something like, “It’s funny, because I mentioned it when you had only half eaten it, but you still ate it all anyway…” and I am laughing as I say this, but it seems like an offense at the same time.

Bread
To see bread in your dream represents the basic needs of life. Bread may signify the positive qualities and great things you have learned on your journey of life. Alternatively, it suggests that you need to rise above the situation or rise for the occasion. Bread has always been symbolic of life itself. In its highest aspect it is considered to be spiritual nourishment – manna. It can also represent the need to share spiritual knowledge. To be sharing bread in a dream represents our ability to share our experience with others so that they may learn.

Assessment of Interpretations
I don’t know; both of these dreams are extremely disturbing to me.

[#2]
I am in an apartment. Maybe the same one as before, but the vibe has changed. Bunch of us are in a room. Jeanette is there, Troy One is there, Tin-Win is there. I am sitting far away from them all, towards the door to the room, on the floor, and I am – I think – typing on the computer. At some point, Jeanette and Troy One are on a bed and Tin-Win is kneeling on the ground before them, both legs, and is asking Jeanette some questions. Jeanette mentions some accomplishment as I am headed to the bathroom (joined to the room) – I don’t even GO to the bathroom, I just walk into there and hang out – and Tin-Win questions a bit rudely how Jeanette got that role, and Jeanette gets offended. I guess Jeanette basically hung around somewhere for a long time until she finally got the job or recognition she wanted, and Tin-Win is frowning upon her for that. Troy One chimes in and says that he basically did the same thing at his job – editing for a magazine is what I gather – and that he just hung around and now he is the second-highest ranked or paid individual at his company. In my mind, I feel like even though that may be true, he probably still doesn’t get paid that much, and I don’t know if that is my own real-life bias and bitterness or if it is dream truth. Meanwhile, I have returned and am standing on the bed near the wall and am either writing on a laptop in standing position or I am writing on a piece of paper against the wall. I am not sure why I am in this position but it is very apparent that I am purposely standing rather than sitting. I do note at some point – not sure if this is before I go to the bathroom or after – that I am doing writing work on the computer but I think that Troy One is doing it by hand somehow. I feel like Jeanette is also on a computer or writing. Unsure.

Fast-forward, and we’re in a car. I’m sitting in the back right seat, behind Troy One. Someone – maybe Tin-Win though I think not – is sitting in the back left seat. Someone else – maybe Jeanette – is driving. Troy One has headphones on and is not paying attention. I have somehow gotten some really horrible song stuck in my head – like Coldplay or something – and I am singing its chorus over and over again, and a little bit embarrassed for doing so, but I do it anyway. I want so badly to talk to Troy One, have an overwhelming desires to put my arm around him and to rip off his headphones and talk to him. But I don’t, and we never speak to one another, in either dream.

Apartment
To dream about an apartment symbolizes a financial or situational state. To dream of a large, lavish apartment indicates an increase to your financial situation or an improvement to your family life. To dream of a shabby and dark apartment indicates misfortune and possible loss.

Standing
To dream that you are standing suggests that you are asserting yourself and making your thoughts and feelings known. Be proud. You need to make a “stand”. Alternatively, the dream means that you are detached from your surroundings.

Assessment of Interpretations
I don’t know; both of these dreams are extremely disturbing to me.

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