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vivian:
[1]
sherry is a child. her mom is there. i think sherry is facing a wall and scribbling on a canvas that is propped up against the wall. i think that she is scribbling on it, but what she’s scribbling (or maybe what is already on there and her scribbling isn’t making anything new or is just continuing to contribute to that image) is that drawing of her running up a hill (the one in their living room).

Walls Definition from dreammoods.com
To see a wall in your dream signifies limitations, obstacles, and boundaries. There is a barrier obstructing your progress. Alternatively, the wall indicates that you are too accustomed to your old habits and way of thinking. You feel stuck. To dream that you demolish or break down a wall indicates that you are breaking through obstacles and overcoming your limitations. It also means that you desire some freedom and independence. If you see a wall crumble, then it suggests that you have risen above your problems and overcame your barriers. To dream that you are hiding behind a wall suggests that you ashamed in acknowledging your connections. To dream that you are being thrown or shot through a wall means that you need to literally breakdown those walls that you have put up around you. You need to venture out and explore.

Walls Definition from dreamsmeaning.org
A wall symbolizes the boundaries of a sacred space. We need to be aware of what our limitations are, not just spiritually but also emotionally. A wall has the symbolism of a dividing line – a marker between the inner and the outer, privacy and open trust. A hole in a wall suggests a breach of trust or privacy. If the wall is imprisoning us we are being held prisoner by our own fears, doubts and difficulties. If the wall appears and disappears, we have only partly dealt with our problem. These may be created as defence mechanisms or support structures, and it is sometimes helpful in the interpretation to decide whether the walls have been created in order to keep ourselves in, or other people out.

Drawing
To dream that you are drawing represents an expression of your latent artistic abilities. You need to show more of your creativity in your waking life. Alternatively, the dream may be a pun on a “draw” to mean a tie or some undecided decision or argument. “It’s a draw.”

Canvas
To see a canvas in your dream symbolizes potential and possibilities, especially if the canvas is blank. Consider the significance of what is on the canvas as, it is an aspect of your unconscious.

[2]
i am looking through sherry’s eyes. she’s facing a wall again, and she’s writing down a sentence she had read somewhere or been told by someone — only the version she’s writing down is extremely different from the version that it actually is. it seems like a translation or reinterpretation, and it is more destructive or “real” or something? the initial one was very childish; it was equally long, but the message it was conveying was very simple. her transcription might start with something like “there was”. not sure. when i first woke up i really remembered both sentences but have since forgot it.

Copying
Copying in spiritual terms signifies reproducing the perfect, producing duality where there was previously only one. It represents emanation, flowing out from the Divine. To be copying an action in dreams suggests we need to learn from others. When we find ourselves making copies we are aware that we need to retain information for ourselves. Such a dream can suggest the idea of reproduction.

Writing
To dream that you are writing signifies communication with someone or with your conscious mind. Alternatively, writing refers to an error in judgment or a mistake that you have made. The dream may also be a metaphor that you are “right” or that your political views are right leaning. To see ancient writings in your dream suggests that there is something you need to learn and understand from the past.

assessment of definitions:
i feel very strongly that these past three dreams i’ve had about sherry are prophetic, and that this upcoming period of time will be extremely transformative for her. its particularly interesting to me that both of these first dreams are dealing with walls, but her writing top or within the confines of the walls to create very new things. i don’t think i’ve ever had a dream where i’ve been looking through the eyes of someone else i know.

[3]
i’m with my mom and we have opera tickets, so we’re headed there. we’re fairly early, and there are a hundred seats or something, but there’s no line (there are scattered people) when we go because it’s so early. there is a huge row of turnstiles, like at bart or something. there’s at least eight of them. my mom is in front of me. she scans her ticket but the turnstile turns by itself before she goes through all the way and she’s kinda stuck in-between. i too scan my ticket and am surprised (as i was when my mom scanned hers) that it is actually like a barcode scanning device rather than something you slide or put the ticket into. similarly, my ticket is scanned and the turnstile turns before i even get through it (in fact, i don’t even START to go through it, whereas my mom had). my mom ends up having to climb through or duck under (i don’t recall) the last bar, and i end up having to climb through all three as well. there was an asian dude who was checking tickets, kinda, or was a security guard or something, and he is fairly far away in this big room thing (it opens up a bit after you get through the turnstile). he seems to start to come over and i start thinking that i need other people to back up my claim to prove that we didn’t just hop the turnstile. i think i want to reference the person behind me (it seems like there’s now a line, kinda), and i think she seems ready to help us explain the situation.

Line
To see a line in your dream symbolizes duality, limits, boundaries and rules. It also relates to movement or non-movement. To see a line of people or objects indicates that you need to be more aware of some situation or relationship. Spiritually in dreams a line can have great significance. The straight line can represent time and the ability to go both forward and back. When horizontal the line is the earthly world and the passive point of view; when vertical it is the spiritual world, the active aspect and the cosmic axis. Psychologically, we tend to need boundaries or demarcation lines, and those lines can be demonstrated in dream symbolism in ways that might not be feasible in everyday life. For instance, jumping over a line would suggest being brave enough to take risks. A line of objects might signify the choices we are offered. A line in a dream often marks a boundary or denotes a measurement. In dreams, it can also signify a link between two objects to show a connection that is not immediately obvious. A straight line suggests a direct approach, the shortest way between two objects or places. A line of people or queue would suggest an imposed order for a particular purpose. If we are waiting in line, the purpose of the line will be important in interpretation.

Opera
To watch an opera in your dream represents your quest for the grander things in life. The dream may also be trying to tell you that you are being overly dramatic in some waking situation.

Ticket
To see a ticket in your dream represents the price you need to pay to attain your goals. You have decided on your path in life. A ticket signifies the start of a new endeavor. Consider also the type of ticket. Generally, a ticket suggests that there is a price to pay for something. A bus ticket would indicate that there is a price for moving forward, as might a train ticket. A ticket to a theatre or cinema may suggest we need to take a back seat and be objective over a part of our lives. Tickets to a football or rugby match might mean that we will have to pay for some area of conflict in our lives.

Confusion
To dream that you are confused, reflects your true confused state of mind and the nonsensical events of your waking life. Isolate the single element in your dream that is confusing to you and analyze the meaning of that particular symbol. Alternatively, dreams of confusion indicate that you are being pulled in opposite directions or you do not know which viewpoint is right.

Machinery
To see machinery in your dream suggests that you are too mechanical – going about your way without much thought and making decisions without thinking it through. You need to get out of your boring pattern. Alternatively, the machinery symbolizes your mind or your body. Examine how the machinery is running and its condition and function. If the machinery is in need of repair, then it suggests that you may need to repair aspects of your self-image or a relationship. If the machine is rusty, then it signifies an outdated way of doing something.

Bar
To see a metal bar in your dream represents your own inner strength. You have the ability and tools to build a solid foundation and future. Alternatively, metal bars symbolize defiance and aggression.

Climb (only because I can’t think of what other term would be better)
To dream that you are climbing up something (ladder, rope, etc.) signifies that you are trying to or you have overcome a great struggle. It also suggests that your goals are finally within reach. Climbing also means that you have risen to a level of prominence within the social or economic sphere.

Security Guard
To see or dream that you are a security guard suggests that you are seeking security in some situation or relationship. The dream is compensating for the lack of security in your waking life. Alternatively, the dream means that there is something of value that you want to protect. In dreams, when we become conscious of someone standing guard or guarding an object we perhaps need to be careful of our actions.

assessment of definitions:
i’m hoping this dream is prophetic, and that big things are on the horizon… trying to figure out the technicalities of it, but it seems to be that things will be faster than anticipated? i’m really not sure.

[4]
i am in some room — like a really brightly lit backstage studio makeup room (though there are no chairs) — with another girl. it might be sherry, but i can’t be sure. we are putting on lipstick (i actulaly think that person first shows me how), only it is a kinda chunky powdery substance, similar to flour in consistency. you dip your fingers into but then it works like regular lipstick when you put it on your lips. it turns from dry to wet, dull to shiny. i choose this really light shade and look in a mirror to put it on. it makes my lips a light pearl color, and it looks rather good, although it is really dramatic. i am reminded of a ballet dancer or something, i dunno why. i take pigment from another lipstick shade and this one is a darker pink. i use it to put a line down the middle of my bottom lip, like kabuki makeup, and it looks pretty awesome. to my left is another room, and in it are three girls; one is lying down on a bed and sleeping. two others are doing i dunno what but i seem to get the impression that they know about this makeup too (?) the room is really dimly lit. when i look back at the mirror at my lipstick, the kabuki line i had added is still there, but it has faded to be closer to the color of the really light pink lipstick shade. but then i look closer and the whole thing has begun to crack, and from the center of the bottom lip, begins to peel off like a piece of gluestick that has been congealed together on your hands.

Mirror Definition from dreammoods.com
To dream of your own reflection in the mirror suggests that you are pondering thoughts about your inner self. The reflection in the mirror is how you perceive yourself or how you want others to see you. You may be contemplating on strengthening and changing aspects of your character. Mirrors symbolize the imagination and the link between the conscious and unconscious.

Mirror Definition from dreamsmeaning.org
The mirror in dreams suggests self-realization, which reflects spiritual wisdom. As a means of understanding ourselves on a deeper level, we can set up a dialogue in real life between our mirror image and ourselves. Many of the insights gained can be quite startling. As a symbol in dreams it allows us to search our self-image and make whatever changes are necessary. To be looking in a mirror can signify trying to look behind us without letting others know what we are doing. We may have a concern over past behaviour. We may also need to ‘reflect’ on something we have done or said. When the image in the mirror is distorted we are having a problem in understanding ourselves. When the mirror image speaks to us we should be listening more closely to our inner selves.

Reflection
To see your reflection in your dream represents your true self; it is time to look within. The reflection may highlight both your flaws and positive attributes. Learn from your flaws and how to improve them.
Symbolically Spiritual truth that is available to us at any particular stage of understanding is often shown to us as though in a reflection. It is as if we need an image that gives us tangibility. Often, to see a reflection in a dream is to try to be understanding the inner self and the way that we cope with the outside world. If in a dream the two images do not correspond, we will need to make some kind of adjustment in order to live comfortably within the everyday world. Our inner self must give the impetus to the outer reality. A reflection seen in a dream has a great deal to do with the way we see ourselves at that particular moment. Our self-image is important to us, as is the way other people see us. If the reflection is in a mirror, then our image will be perhaps more ‘solid’, whereas one seen in water will be more transient. The story of Narcissus and the way he fell in love with himself (or rather his own image) is a warning to all of us against self-worship.

Powder
To see something powdery in your dream suggests that you need to be more refined in your behavior and speech.

Lipstick
To buy, see, or wear lipstick in your dream suggests that you are not entirely truthful about something. The dream seeks to draw attention to your lips. Perhaps you need to be careful about what you or someone else is saying. Alternatively, it signifies sexuality and sensuality, especially if the color is red.

Makeup
To dream that you are applying makeup suggests that you are trying to cover up or conceal an aspect of yourself. Alternatively, it indicates that you are putting on your best face forward. You are trying to enhance your self-image and increase your sense of self-confidence.

Shiny
To see something shiny in your dream represents your potential that has yet to be unleashed. Consider the significance of the shiny object as it holds something important.

Wet
To dream that you are wet indicates that you are overcome with emotions. It also signifies a spiritual cleansing, rebirth or renewal. Alternatively, the dream may imply sexual arousal.

Colors
Colors in dreams represent energy, emotions, and vibes. First consider what that single color in your dream means to you and your own personal associations and relationship with that color. In general, pale pastel colors indicate weakness or subtlety. Dark colors represent passion and intensity. Bright colors mean awareness.

Pink
Pink represents love, joy, sweetness, happiness, affection and kindness. Being in love or healing through love is also implied with this color. Alternatively, the color implies immaturity or weakness, especially when it comes to love. Consider also the notion of getting “pink slipped”.

Ballerina
To dream that you are a ballerina suggests that you are moving through the obstacles of your life effortlessly. You feel unrestricted. It is also a symbol of innocence, frailty, and vulnerability. Alternatively, you may feel unable to attain and measure up to society’s ideals of beauty. The fairylike appearance of the classical ballerina within a dream shows we are making a connection with the creative energy within. Also we are searching for balance and poise.

Bright
To dream that something is bright represents divinity, a higher consciousness, and spirituality. You need to show your honor toward an important an person or situation. The dream may also be a metaphor for intellect and someone who is smart. If your dream is particularly bright and vivid, then it could indicate a prophetic or epic dream.

Dim
To dream that it is dim indicates that you are lacking clarity in a waking situation. You need to shed some light or perspective on the issue. Alternatively, the dream may be a metaphor for someone who is dumb or stupid.

Peel
To dream that you are peeling something represents the shedding away of old ways, habits and conditions. It may also mean that you are finally getting rid of and discarding unneeded exterior pretenses.

assessment of definitions:
there are a LOT of parallel symbols here, stacked atop one another. i think it all has to do with my book that i just finished writing. i have been feeling slightly wary about some parts of it and wondering if just how open i should be about its information because it could potentially hurt some people. the dream seems to be telling me to reassess these things, but at the same time, seems to be saying that the book in general is a positive thing. i think.

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vivian:
not much to speak of that i remember. sherry is getting a tarot reading or something, though it is not quite exactly that. what i remember is something i woke up feeling was fairly important, though. she evidently passed on the first card she was dealt (this is not like the rules of tarot at all, i don’t think) and the second card she got spoke to her so deeply that she held onto it or something, and wanted to get a tattoo of it, or SOMETHING. i don’t remember what the card was other than that it was very symmetrical, and very balanced, and essentially meant two complementary halves coming together. i have vague recolletions of dragons as a symbol, though i’m not sure if that was from this dream or a previous one in the same night.

Dragons
To see a dragon in your dream represents your strong will and fiery personality. You tend to get carried away by your passion, which may lead you into trouble. You need to exercise some self-control. In the eastern cultures, dragons are seen as spiritual creatures symbolizing good luck and fortune. To dream that you are a dragon and breathing fire suggests that you are using your anger to get your own way.

Tarot Cards
To dream of a tarot reading indicates your current situation and state of mind. You are open to exploring your unconscious thoughts and feelings. Pay attention to what the Tarot Cards reveal. Consider the following general meanings of the four Tarot suits: The Wands represent fire, inspiration, spirituality, action, initiative, and the Psyche. The suit of the Swords signify air, determination, strength, faith, and conquering of fear. The Cups symbolize water, emotions, purity, and your outlook toward life and the future. The Pentacles denote finances, social influence, worldly knowledge, and your connection with nature and earth.

i am upstairs in an attic or something. it’s someone else’s house, i think sherry’s. tin-win is sitting on the bed next to me, sherry in one corner to my right, near the door, someone else to my back left (female) on a chair, someone else to the far back left in the corner (male) on a chair. i feel like there is a shower in the top right corner of the room. it is a square room. a dresser sits to the top left.

there are three distinctive bags of candy strewn about on sherry’s bed, and i ask her if we can eat from one of them. two of the bags seem to be kit-kat varieties initially, though i’ve never seen them before. i make tin-win and sherry choose which bag to eat from; tin-win chooses the kit-kats that look like they’re in a normal wrapper, and sherry chooses some that are in a white wrapper. i’m not sure what the reasoning is — there is some kind of arbitrary reasoning — but i choose sherry’s. i throw one to her and she breaks off one strip of the four, then throws it to tin-win, who comments on how it is smart that she broke off one piece of the four. she throws it to me, and i pass it along to the people behind me. i don’t actually recall eating it myself, and if in fact ther were four pieces and everyone else took a piece, i dunno how i would have eaten the piece.

so initially, we’re throwing around the entire bag, i believe, but by the time the wrapper gets in my hands, it is just a solitary wrapper. i feel like it is turkish, and i think i may even say that, but when i look at it, it actually has chinese writing. it’s not actually a kit-kat, either.

fast-forward a bit, and this might even be an entirely different dream. i am in a living room, and i think it is my house. it has dark walls. it is elegantly furnished, victorian-esque, i believe. i think it’s just me, maybe. troy (my boyfriend) is somewhere else but i recall being in touch with him over the telephone or something, though we don’t have a direct conversation. at some point, troy one emerges, and he is sitting at the dining room table, made of dark wood. it seems he has a letter i had written him — perhaps THE letter i had written him — and is commenting on it like it was no big deal, like we were still friends, like it was fine. he was asking me about a book i had bought him, and i told him that i didn’t have it anymore because i had lent it to someone in seattle and he had never returned it (that was the truth, in real life). he then asked me if i still wanted to do _______ if i wasn’t going to ethiopia, and i thought in my head that i wasn’t going to ethiopia, but i might be going to portugal, and anyway, i didn’t want to do that…

at some point i am standing fairly far away from him in the room, and he comes up to me and hugs me. i hug him back, and it feels really, really good to be hugging him like that. but then he turns my face towards him, and i really don’t want to look at him because i feel i know what will happen, and what i feel will happen does happen — he starts to kiss me, a lot, on the lips. small pecks. i tell him that i can’t. i think i say i have a boyfriend. i even start tearing up and one rolls down my face. he stops.

fast-forward. we’re in the kitchen. troy is standing to my front right, lenny to my front left. the refrigerator is directly in front of me. lenny meets him and is like, “oh! you’re troy!” as if he knew, though in real life he probably wouldn’t recognize the name and reference. he jokes with troy, “i just started dating her,” and he says oh, and then lenny laughs and is like, “just kidding!” and i don’t know if he says he is my ex-boyfriend or not. i think he does.

fast-forward, and i think lenny turns into my brother phil, or phil just appears and lenny disappears. in either case, phil is weirded out that troy is there and asks if we want to go take a walk around the neighborhood. then asks if we want to go eat sushi. i’m not actually sure that i want to take a walk around the neighborhood, but i agree to. we get outside and it looks like we’re in england, really way back when, with all cobblestone streets, lots of grey, tall buildings. it seems like victorian-era england, though we’re dressed just normally.

we’re walking, and then we come across some broken down cars or something. also grey. old-school. i dunno why but we’re there FOREVER and my brother is trying to help fix them or something, though it’s not like he knows anything about cars and he physically is doing nothing. it’s like he’s just standing around looking at them, but that he feels like he needs to. the back tire, at least in the one troy is standing in front of, is busted and looks like it’s falling apart. there is no driver. my brother is standing near the other car.

meanwhile, i am getting impatient. troy is standing near the second of the cars, doing nothing in particular, and i go talk to my brother, who is standing by the first car, about how i want to leave to go eat sushi and also ask him if i should ask troy just what the fuck happened to him all these months. my brother says that i shouldn’t, but i contradict him and argue that i think i should. i want to leave so i can question him about just what the fuck. i think i wake up.

Attic
To see an attic in your dream represents hidden memories or repressed thoughts that are being revealed. It also symbolizes your mind, spirituality, and your connection to the higher Self. Alternatively, it signifies difficulties in your life that may hinder you from attaining your goals and aspirations. However, after a long period of struggle, you will overcome these difficulties. To see a cluttered attic in your dream is a sign to organize your mind and thoughts. Perhaps, you need to rid yourself of the past and let go of the past emotions that are holding you back.

Bedroom
To dream that you are in the bedroom signifies aspects of yourself that you keep private. It is also indicative of your sexual nature and intimate relations.

Drawers
To see drawers in your dream signify your inner and hidden state and being. In particular, a disorderly drawer represents internal chaos and turmoil while an orderly drawer signifies calmness. Alternatively, a drawer symbolizes your reserves. There is something that you have stored away, but are now ready to use or express. If the drawer is full, then it symbolizes your many resources. If the drawer is empty, then it denotes your need to fulfill your goals.

Candy
To see or eat candy in your dream symbolizes the joys and the special treats in life. It also represents indulgence, sensuality and/or forbidden pleasure. You may be devoting too much time to unimportant issues. To dream of eating crisp, new candy, implies social pleasures and much love-making among the young and old.

Share
To dream that you are sharing something symbolizes your generosity toward others. Perhaps you need to be more generous with your feelings.

Table
To see a table in your dream represents social unity and family connections. If the table is broken, wobbly or not functional, then it suggests some dissension in a group. It may also refer to a sense of insecurity. Perhaps there is something you cannot hold inside any longer and need to bring it out in the open.

Memory
To dream about a memory suggests that you are ready to rid yourself of your old ways and undergo a transformation. You are ready for a new outlook in life. Recalling a memory in your dream may also be less of a shock then if you had recalled the memory in your waken state. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you have learned from your past experiences.

Hugging
To dream that you are hugging someone symbolizes your loving and caring nature. You are holding someone or something close to your heart. Alternatively, it may indicate your need to be more affectionate.

Kissing
If someone tries to kiss you against your will, then it means that someone is shoving their ideas, beliefs and opinions in your face. He or she is forcing you to do something that you do not really want to do. This dream may also mean that you are refusing to accept some repressed aspect of yourself. If you are kissed by a stranger, then your dream is one of self-discovery. You need to get more acquainted with some aspect of yourself.

Tears
To dream that you are in tears signify that you are undergoing a period of healing in your life. The tears symbolize compassion, emotional healing and spiritual cleansing. Alternatively, tears indicate pain.

Kitchen
To see a kitchen in your dream signifies your need for warmth, spiritual nourishment and healing. It may also be symbolic of the nurturing mother or the way that you are for your loved ones. Alternatively the kitchen represents a transformation. Something new or life altering is about to occur. The dream could also be telling you that if “you can’t stand the heat, then you need to get out of the kitchen”. You need to abort your plans. In a woman’s dreams a kitchen symbolizes how she nurtures others.

City
Dreaming of a city, particularly one known to us, is to be trying to understand our sense of community; of belonging to groups. If you dream of a big city, then it suggests that you need to develop closer ties and relationships. You are feeling alienated and alone. To dream that you are in a deserted city indicates that you feel rejected by those around you. To dream of a city in ruins denotes that you are neglecting your social relationships and allowing them to deteriorate.

Victorian
To dream that you are in the Victorian period indicates that you are feeling sexually repressed. You feel you are unable to full express yourself.

Gray
Gray indicates fear, fright, depression, ill health, ambivalence and confusion. You may feel emotionally distant isolated, or detached. Alternatively, the color gray symbolizes your individualism.

Car
In modern times most people will dream about the car or other similar forms of transport. Dreaming of a carriage, such as a horse-drawn one, could be suggestive of old-fashioned attitudes to modern thinking. All vehicles reflect the physical body, so anything wrong with the vehicle may alert us to a problem. A car in particular is a reflection of a person’s self-image and possibly sexuality and indeed any part of a car has significance. The back tires might suggest our support system, the steering wheel the way we control our lives and so on.

Tires
To see tires in your dream suggest that you are dwelling too much in the past and need to move on toward the future. It also refers to your emotional health and your ability to bounce back from adversity. You are able to carry yourself from one situation to another with confidence. To see or dream that you have a flat tire indicates that you are feeling emotionally drained and weary. Your goals are temporarily hindered and as a result, you are unable to progress any further. To dream that your tires have no more tread suggests that are unable to get any traction toward achieving your goals. Decay in dreams is evidence of the natural cycle of life:growth, decline and regeneration. Out of decay comes new growth and knowledge.

assessment of interpretations:
not sure, but there are certainly recurring themes of:
[1] letting go of the past;
[2] sexual confusion and frustration.
i will say that all of these things have been on my mind and were also discussed last night right before going to bed. the victorian-era thing seems natural to associate with troy one as well, so i wonder if, in general, he just represents the entirety of the victorian era (inability to express oneself sexually) as a whole, or if it is him in particular… because i can’t figure out why he would appear in my dream after so long…

[1]
i am giving someone an interview about the new REDEFINE. i have a slight bit of stumbling over words towards the end, but it is generally all fine. eventually she gives me a metal box or something that is the shape of a band-aid container. i open it up at these metal push pins — the ones that are shaped like t’s made of wire — come spilling out.

[2]
forget.

[3]
carnival-concert-type setting. there is one particular shopkeeper, and he has set up an installation in his shop where these mannequins are hiding out in a bathtub. the shop next door is where i spend more of my time (i don’t go into the one where the bathtub is), but i do think it’s a great installation. jeanette is there or on the phone (i’m not sure) and tells me that she has two tickets to a show tonight for thrice and some other similar band — thursday, i think — and asks me if i want to go. it’s evidently new Year’s Eve, and i’m not interested, but i think she needs someone to take photographs for her. i decline, but i try and ask two of my writers but confuse kyle with aeryn because they both came from “that world” in my mind. turns out it’s aeryn, and he’s slightly stressed out (he also looks more like kyle, though not really — maybe he is a visual blend of the two) and says that he needs time to plan. really, though, i don’t care that much and am just wanting him to go if he wants to go, and i tell him this. not sure what he eventually decides, or if he eventually decides anything. Later on, i talk to the tub shop owner man later on and he is bummed that his installation doesn’t really make him money, because it doesn’t have much to sell. both shops are vintage shops. i tell him that he should just put new items in and he says that would mess up the scene. i say he should just put in items that fit within the current scene, and he points to my hair and says, “Like hair clips?” and i picture hair clips with flowers attached to it and agree, though i don’t know if i rEaLLY agree, in retrospect. but then he says that he doesn’t think it’s worth it, essentially, because the installation-shop is only lasting until tomorrow. From there i think we go to the shop next door and suddenly it’s more like an office building, and him and the owner of that shop both sit down at computers and i take it as my cue that i should leave. i think it’s around 5pm to 7pm and i text troy to try and meet up with him at another menu. a map of the layout of the place flashes in my mind, and i consider where i am supposed to meet him; it feels like it is far away but when the map pulls up, i realize it’s not really very far away at all. in fact, it’s right across the way, kitty-corner to the shops. He texts me back and says he’ll be there soon (i don’t know the exact words; that’s just the vibe i get) and i start to head over there…

[4]
this is kind of connected to dream number three in that it is in a similar carnival-concert type setting, only the storefronts are gone and i’m not quite sure where i am. i am in a roomful of people, and there is a filthy, filthy event going on. it begins with a bunch of like teenage girls and one guy, i think. they are behind glass, i think. the guy has what looks like a giant gummy worm, and everyone is sitting in a square formation in front of what looks like a giant pile of gummy worms and booze and i don’t know what else. the guy is told to use the gummy worm to slap it about, and he starts by poking the giant gummy worm into the neck of the girl exactly opposite him, and there’s this video game-violence-esque burst of what looks like gushers juice or something that represents the blood of her getting stabbed in the neck or something. it’s not real. anyway, everyone starts going to town (eventually another guy appears though i’m not sure if he was there from the start or what) and starts eating and drinking and i’m not sure what the objective is.i have the vague sense that people are throwing up, though now when i think about it, i can’t even picture someone doing that in the dream. but i do feel like that was the ultimate objective or something. there’s a part that zooms in on what looks like a sink drain and in one of the grates of the sink drain, jeanette’s head is popping out. i picture what it looks like underneath, and what it looks like underneath is her floating in a giant vat of water. the idea is that people would puke into that drain or something and there is a slight bit of water in it right now, but if anyone puked in there jeanettould stand up in the tank that she was floating in and that would push her head up above the water and puke. it seemed like a strange system, and jeanette seemed miniature. Eventually people start dropping out and it seems like it is a test of who can eat the most and drink the most although there is no actual measure. the other guy drops out and he comes over and sits next to me and looks at me and (possibly?) jeanette and says, “they are so drunk,” of the two main girls who are left behind. One of the girls, a brunette, stops and comes over and she’s practically crawling on the ground and gives this little “sexy” wink, only it’s not really particularly sexy at all. soon the guy next to me gives me his business card or something? i think it’s black with white text. Only it’s not really His business card; he has taken some other guys’, with the same info, and scratched off his name and replaced it with his own. not sure how he did that considering the white on black text thing.

i don’t remember too much of the details but i am in a room with many children who are spread out all over the place, doing crafts. it feels and seems like absolute chaos and i feel like it is unmanageable (not that i am really trying; i am kind of just observing). when all is said and done, though, and i step back, it’s chaotic but there is order in the chaos. they have been cutting tons of paper and it looks like it is strewn all about the room but really they’re in somewhat organized stacks. the only “crafts” i really remember are five stacks of red paper, each with a cut out triangle or something at the center of it (very messily cut out).

interpretation for “paper”:
blank writing paper points to a lack of communication, or need to communicate with someone, but can also suggest a new beginning. brown paper can highlight the utilitarian side of our nature. old-fashioned parchment scrolls (which were originally made from animal skins) would suggest longlasting information. to see blank white paper in your dream signifies your desire to make a fresh start in your life. you need to express yourself through writing or art. alternatively, blank paper indicates that you need to work on being more communicative. paper is one of those images that, in dreams, are dependent on the circumstances in the dreamer’s life. for instance, in a student’s life, paper would suggest the need to pay attention to the studies, whereas festive wrapping paper could indicate the need for, or the possibility of, celebration. the art of making paper or creating parchment indicates a highly skilled individual. to see a stack of papers in your dream denotes overwhelming responsibilities and stress that you are having to cope with. you are not effectively dealing with the issues at hand.

interpretation for “triangle”:
to see a triangle in your dream symbolizes your aspirations, potential and truth. It represents your spirituality: the body, mind, and spirit. if the triangle is pointing upward, then it signifies the masculine while a downward pointing triangle signifies the feminine.

interpretation for “cutting”:
to dream that you are cutting something signifies a broken relationship or severed connection. alternatively, the dream may be a metaphor for something you need to “cut out” in your life. perhaps it refers to a bad habit or a certain food.

assessment of interpretations:
was feeling weird about redesign of redefine.

i keep hearing about death. my friend is at work and his manager has gotten a heart attack. a high school acquaintance comes in crying, and everyone leaves. i end up coaxing a story out of him; his boss at hot yoga died in front of him. he finds a replacement assistant and then asks me to lie down with him i can hear his story. instead, he hits on me and tries to get me to go with him to this gross back room. i definitely get turned on because he’s whispering really close to my year, but i say, “no, i have a boyfriend.” i run away outside. he asks me if he can borrow my white blanket. i say no, switch him for my sleeping bag, and say i need it back. wake up feeling like a lot of people are going to die inexplicably or randomly, with relation to 2012, though i’m not sure if that is meant literally or symbolically.

vivian:
initially i am biking up to hawthorne to meet, i think, gina and troy, and i realize that i am going in the wrong direction. i know the whole time that i am supposed to be going to division st. yet i started off biking north. strange. i turn around and am heading downhill. it is easy, though i stop at an t-intersection on this fictional division st. (that is nothing like division st. in real life) and it echoes through my head that this is the most dangerous intersection in town, and that people die here every year. as i’m stopped there, the right side is clear of cars, but a car comes from the left side, right over the crest of the hill. it’s good that i stopped because i otherwise would never have seen it. i move on.

it was nighttime originally, but it turns to daytime. the road starts to get narrow and hard to bike on so i switch to “walking” my bike — only it has turned to a skateboard and i hold it in my hands. the road begins to flood. people are everywhere, enjoying the water. i see some people towards my right who seem like they are a part of a wedding party or something. a few are waiting to jump but another jumps in fully clothed, and i can almost feel the coldness as he hits the water. it makes me want to jump in, too. but i don’t. everyone is so happy! jubilation!

soon, though, the water goes to the height where it covers us all. i almost miss an “onramp” to get off division st. but notice as i’m walking past it that there are people coming down the ramp, who are higher up than me — and i backtrack to get there. i go up the sidewalk.

fast-forward to being in this beautiful house where troy and gina are. lots of patterns everywhere, which i love, of course. just my taste in house. a little bit victorian, rustic… ornate everywhere. wallpaper on every wall. lots of pinks and creams, high ceilings.

i am sitting on a sofa next to gina in one spacious room. troy is right behind us in another chair. i am joking about weddings. (why the fuck am i joking about weddings???????) i hint to gina, rather than troy, for some reason, about wanting a wedding ring. she says something. i say, “it’s okay; it could even be a piece of string!”

soon we are in another room. there is a ziplock bag of rice. i vaguely recall seeing a moth around, and gina finds one in the rice. she squishes it with her hand. i tell her to pull out a handful surrounding it, and she’s like, “what does that mean? like this?” and motions kinda like that, and i say yes. then she’s like, “wait, is that another one?” as one comes out of this divot thing, and indeed, it is. she squishes that one too. soon she finds an entire swarm hidden inside the middle of the rice. maybe like seven come out and start going to various parts of the room. i run over and try to close the bag but am so disgusted that i have a hard time making that happen. i end up chanting something over and over again; i forget the words exactly, but it’s something like, “bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad!” (though it is not.)

Bicycle
To dream that you are riding a bicycle signifies your desires to attain a balance in your life. You need to balance work and pleasure in order to succeed in your current undertakings. If you have difficulties riding the bicycle, then it suggests that you are experiencing anxieties about making it on your own.
Psychological / Emotional Perspective:
Psychologically, we could be looking for freedom without responsibility. We probably need to achieve some way of moving forward in a project using balanced judgement.
Everyday Material Aspects:
When we dream of riding a bicycle it shows the need to pay attention to personal effort or motivation. To fall off the bicycle indicates a lack of good judgment.
Gender / Specific Meanings:
A bicycle in a woman’s dream represents personal freedom and previously might have suggested rebellion. In a man’s dream it is most likely to have links with childhood memories.
Bicycle
To dream of riding a bicycle up hill, signifies bright prospects. Riding it down hill, if the rider be a woman, calls for care regarding her good name and health; misfortune hovers near.

Intersection
To dream that you are at an intersection represents a decision or choice that you need to make in order to progress forward.
Meaning:
When we meet an intersection in dreams, for instance two roads or paths crossing or meeting, we are having to make choices which may have a greater impact on others than they do on us.
Psychological / Emotional Perspective:
If we are conscious of an intersection – perhaps in a pattern that appears in a dream – we are being offered choices, and perhaps have to differentiate between right and wrong.
Everyday Material Aspects:
An intersection that appears in a dream – such as a T-junction – indicates there is a choice of two ways forward. Two opposites may be coming together in our waking lives, and we are able to make changes and move forward in a more focused way.

Stop Sign
To see a stop sign in your dream suggests that you need to stop what you are doing and rethink about the situation before moving forward. You need to proceed with care and caution. Alternatively, a stop sign signifies barriers and difficulties in your path.

Car
To dream that you are almost hit by a car suggests that your lifestyle, beliefs or goals may be in conflict with another’s. It may also be symbolic of a jolting experience or injured pride.
cart / chariot – any wheeled vehicle is by tradition a reflection of us and how we handle life. Carts, chariots and carriages tend to have a more old-fashioned resonance, whereas a car is more up to date and in keeping with modern thinking. All such vehicles reflect the physical body, so anything wrong with the vehicle may alert us to a problem. A car in particular is a reflection of a person’s self-image and possibly sexuality and indeed any part of a car has significance. The back tyres might suggest our support system, the steering wheel the way we control our lives and so on. If the brakes are not working we are not exercising proper control over our lives. Too many people in the car would suggest that we feel overloaded by responsibility. Also consult the entries for Car, Carriage/Cart/Chariot, Passenger and Wheel for additional information.
A crashing vehicle suggests fear of failure in life, while a car on fire denotes stress of some sort, either physically or emotionally. To be in a car which is driven carelessly, either by us or someone else, marks a lack of responsibility, while a feeling of being left behind would be shown by your car being overtaken.
Everyday Material Aspects:
To dream of being in a car usually alerts us to our own motivation, thus driving the car can indicate our need to achieve a goal, while being a passenger could indicate that we have handed over responsibility for our lives to someone else.

Night
To have a dream that takes place at night represents some major setbacks and obstacles in achieving your goals. You are being faced with an issue that is not so clear cut. Perhaps, you should put the issues aside so you can clear your head and come back to it later. Alternatively, night may be synonymous with death, rebirth, reflection, and new beginnings.
Meaning:
Night symbolizes the intense darkness that occurs before rebirth or initiation. There is a disintegration, which has to occur before there can be any possibility of enlightenment. Night can also signify death or drastic change.
Everyday Material Aspects:
Night signifies a period of rest and relaxation, both in dreams and in ordinary life. It can, however, also suggest a time of chaos and difficulty. More positively, it is a period that allows us to create a new beginning with the dawning of the new day. Used constructively, night is, therefore, the fallow period before fresh growth.

Day
To dream of a sunny day symbolizes clarity and/or pleasantness. You are seeing things clearly.
Day
To dream of the day, denotes improvement in your situation, and pleasant associations. A gloomy or cloudy day, foretells loss and ill success in new enterprises.

Day And Night
Meaning:
A form of spiritual illumination is quite often felt within this type of dream. There is a gradual awareness rather than a blinding flash of illumination. A new dawn can bring a great sense of hope. Day and night can represent opposites, as in black and white, boy and girl etc. Indeed, any two opposites may have relevance, and it is up to us to decide what opposition there is in our lives.
Meaning:
A form of spiritual illumination is quite often felt within this type of dream. There is a gradual awareness rather than a blinding flash of illumination. A new dawn can bring a great sense of hope. Day and night can represent opposites, as in black and white, boy and girl etc. Indeed, any two opposites may have relevance, and it is up to us to decide what opposition there is in our lives.
Everyday Material Aspects:
To dream of a dawn or a new day represents a new beginning or a new awareness in circumstances around us. We are looking for different ways of dealing with old situations. Dreaming of both day and night indicates the cycle of time or of changes that will inevitably take place. Sometimes indication is given of the nature of a period of time.

Skateboard
To see or ride a skateboard in your dream indicates that you have the gift of making any difficult situation look easy. You carry yourself with style, grace and composure in the hardest of situations. Alternatively, the dream signifies your free and fun-loving side.

Flood
To dream that you are in a flood represents your need to release some sexual desires. If the flood is raging, then it represents emotional issues and tensions. Your repressed emotions are overwhelming you. Consider where the flood is for clues as to where in your waking life is causing you stress and tension. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you are overwhelming others with your demands and strong opinion. Still another interpretation could be your desire to wipe everything clean and make a fresh new start.
To see a gentle flood in your dream indicates that your worries over a certain matter will soon be swept away.

Swimming
To dream that you are swimming suggests that you are exploring aspects of your unconscious mind and emotions. The dream may be a sign that you are seeking some sort of emotional support. It is a common dream image for people going through therapy.
To dream that you are swimming underwater suggests that you are completely submerged in your own feelings. You are forcing yourself to deal with your unconscious emotions.
Meaning:
Swimming is an archetypal dream image. It suggests that spiritual energy is being used as we are moving towards a particular goal. It is said in dreams to symbolize the womb experience.
Psychological / Emotional Perspective:
To dream of being a good swimmer shows the ability to be able to handle emotional situations well, whereas being a poor swimmer in a dream could indicate the need to learn how to handle our emotions in a more positive way. Swimming in water will always be symbolic of the emotions, whereas swimming through the air connects with intellectual ability.
Everyday Material Aspects:
Dreaming of swimming has much the same symbolism as immersion. To be swimming upstream in a dream would indicate we are going against our own nature. Swimming fish can have the same symbolism as sperm and, therefore, can indicate the desire for a child. Swimming in clear water indicates being cleansed, whereas dark water could symbolize the possibility of depression.

Wading
Meaning:
Spiritually, wading suggests a cleansing process, which ties in with baptism. Many meditations also use the symbolism of walking through water.
Psychological / Emotional Perspective:
Often the feeling associated with wading can be more relevant than the action of wading itself. To recognize that we are not actually in water – for example, we are wading through treacle or another substance which impedes our progress – can give us a clue to how we feel about ourselves or our circumstances.
Everyday Material Aspects:
Dreaming of wading puts us in the position of recognizing what effect our emotions can have on us. If we are impeded by the water then we need to appreciate how our emotions can prevent us from moving forward. If we are enjoying our wading experience, then we may expect our connection with life to bring contentment. Sometimes the depths to which our bodies are immersed can give us information as to how we cope with external circumstances. For instance, if the water is chest high we should consider how much our knowledge of ourselves is being threatened.
Wading
To dream of wading in water symbolizes your power and control over your emotions. Consider the depth and clarity of the water to determine how much power and control you have over the circumstances and situations in your life.

Sidewalk
To dream that you are walking on a sidewalk represents your steady progress and direction in life. You may be experiencing new walks of life. If the sidewalk is cracked, then it signifies minor and temporary setbacks that are keeping you from getting to your destination. Perhaps you need to alter your course and make some changes in your life.

House
To see a house in your dream represents your own soul and self. Specific rooms in the house indicate a specific aspect of your psyche.
Meaning:
The house is popularly known as the seat of the soul, and in spiritual terms links us to the way we are in the world. A house represents security and safety, and therefore signifies protection and the Great Mother.
Psychological / Emotional Perspective:
In psychological terms, the house also signifies the life we live, the protections we create and the ‘structure’we present to other people.
Everyday Material Aspects:
In dreams, the different rooms and parts of houses represent the various aspects of our personality and life experiences.
House (or any place of residence) – if we are aware that the house is not empty – that it is furnished in some way – those articles will mirror some aspect of our character or day-to-day concerns. Also consult the individual entry for Furniture / Furnishings. Being aware of someone else in the house suggests that we may be feeling threatened by an aspect of our own personality. If there are different activities going on it indicates that there is a conflict between two parts of our personality, possibly the creative and the intellectual. Being especially aware of the front of the house portrays the facade we show to the outside world, whereas going into / out of the house indicates we need to decide whether to be more introverted or more extroverted in our dealings with other people. An impressive, awe-inspiring house indicates that we are conscious of the Self or the Soul.

Couch
To see or dream that you are on a couch represents rest, relaxation, laziness or boredom. It may also mean you need to clear you mind and thoughts. Consider also who is on the couch with you as the dream may also have sexual connotations.
To dream of reclining on a couch, indicates that false hopes will be entertained. You should be alert to every change of your affairs, for only in this way will your hopes be realized.

Wedding Ring
To see a wedding ring in your dream represents completeness and eternal love. If you are not married and find a wedding ring, then it means that your personal relationship has reached a new level.
To dream that you lose your wedding ring signifies a problem or unresolved issue in your marriage.
Wedding Ring
For a woman to dream her wedding ring is bright and shining, foretells that she will be shielded from cares and infidelity. If it should be lost or broken, much sadness will come into her life through death and uncongeniality. To see a wedding ring on the hand of a friend, or some other person, denotes that you will hold your vows lightly and will court illicit pleasure.
Meaning:
A wedding can symbolize the sacred union between the spiritual and physical. In former times it was seen as a ritual that brought fertility to the earth. Within the human being there is the need to make vows, to give promises and above all to symbolize the making of those promises Traditionally, the wedding ring was a symbol of total encircling love because it is in the shape of a circle. It is complete, with no beginning and no end.
The wedding ring, worn on the finger that represents the heart – that is, the fourth finger of the left hand – suggests that we have made a commitment or promise. To dream of a wedding ring being on any other finger than that particular finger may indicate that the promise is not valid or we feel the wedding ring to be a constriction or an entrapment in some way.
To dream of losing our wedding ring would very often symbolize a problem within a marriage, or perhaps highlight a problem in our commitment. To dream of finding a wedding ring might well indicate that a relationship is being formed that could result in marriage.

String
To see a string in your dream represents binding, cohesion, or joining, depending on the context of the dream. It relates to the strength of your involvement in a project, situation, or relationship. Perhaps, you are having concerns about your ability to hold some situation or relationship together. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you need to use your position and leverage to get what you want. Consider the phrase “pulling strings.”
To dream that you are tying a string indicates something you have forgotten to do.
To dream that you are untangling a string suggests that there is some issue in your waking life that you need to straighten.
Everyday Material Aspects:
String appearing in dreams signifies some sort of binding, perhaps to make something secure. It may also represent trying to hold a situation together.

Moth
Psychological / Emotional Perspective:
The moth symbolizes the darker side of us that uses fantasy. The moth emerging from darkness signifies our need to recognize this shadowy self so that we can survive difficulties unscathed. The moth is largely associated with nighttime and therefore connects with the hidden side of our nature. Also, because the moth can be self-destructive when there is light around, it may highlight personal weakness. It also tends to symbolize our dream self and the more transient side of our personality – that part that finds difficulty in settling to proper tasks. Moth
To?see a moth in your dream indicates that some unseen irritation may not surface until it is too late. It is important to pay attention to the minor details and not to overlook certain things. Alternatively, the moth symbolizes your weaknesses, character flaws or fragileness.

Rice
To see grains of rice in your dream symbolize success, prosperity, luck, fertility and warm friendships.
Rice
Rice is good to see in dreams, as it foretells success and warm friendships. Prosperity to all trades is promised, and the farmer will be blessed with a bounteous harvest.
To eat it, signifies happiness and domestic comfort. To see it mixed with dirt or otherwise impure, denotes sickness and separation from friends.

Bag
To see a bag in your dream represents the responsibilities that you carry. If the bag is ripped or torn, then it indicates that you are carrying a lot of burden. The symbol may be a metaphor for an “old bag” and refer to someone who is old.
To dream of a bag full of junk symbolizes that you are burdened with worries and problems; you have to find a way on unloading some of this burden.
Meaning:
A bag spiritually signifies the secret, the hidden and the occult. Long known as a symbol of femininity because of its association with the womb, it can also suggest intuitive wisdom. Occasionally it will suggest the elements of wind and air.
Psychological / Emotional Perspective:
Depending on the actual bag (e. g. a handbag, a shopping bag) and what is in it, we are probably hiding certain aspects of ourselves from public consideration. To be emptying a bag suggests that we are attempting to get rid of old concepts or ideas or other aspects which may be holding us back. To have lost a bag signifies that we have temporarily suppressed certain character traits.
Everyday Material Aspects:
You may be having problems with the more feminine elements in your identity such as compassion or nurturing. There is an ability to use the social graces to achieve, and to cope with whatever occurs. A torn or broken bag may alert you to a health problem or to there being too much to deal with.
Gender / Specific Meanings:
Whereas previously men carrying bags were seen as effeminate, this is no longer the case, so in dreams a man carrying a bag can symbolize his attitude to his responsibilities. In a woman’s dream a bag is more likely to represent her inner feelings.